Chapter 13

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I pressed the power button once more, grateful to my annoying sister for lending me her computer lifegiver.

I entered in my computer password which was definitely not 'harrystyles' because I was not a One Direction fan.

Ok it was. Fight me.

I opened up instagram to a couple DM's and I started with the most important.

'I'm sorry.'

That could have come from one person.

You guessed it. Its Billie.

Me
what for?

Billie
being an asshole. why did you ignore my calls?

Me
oh sorry about that. they took my phone

Billie
shit sorry

Me
don't apologize.

I felt as if there was something else she wanted to say but she refrained from it.

Sighing, I closed those DM's and moved on to the others.

TheBellTwins
hey its eli

Me
party dude, right?

TheBellTwins
and the brother of the dude you kissed...

I wanted to run. I wanted to run far away from the current situation and anything that reminded me of that night.

Knowing I couldn't, I replied.

Me
oh... um ya

TheBellTwins
my brother kinda sorta really fucking likes you and we're in florida right now.. i wanted to surprise him... can you maybe meet us?

My mind screamed no but my selfless side said yes..

I was still grounded...

What could possibly happen? It's just a meet up. Not even a date.

Even if it was I don't think I'd mind.

Because I'm straight.

Me
yeah im down. when were you thinking?

TheBellTwins
how about three?

Me
👍

I'm fucking fucked.

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Three o' clock couldn't have come any faster. I even attempted to procrastinate which seemed to speed up time.

I don't know how that's even possible. 

Elijah and I texted on the whereabouts of out meet which was possibly the most cliche option.

The coffee shop.

That's what had me sitting all alone in the corner of a coffee shop, drinking a iced white mocha.

The bell dinged, signalling someone's arrival.

"I don't even like fucking coffee dude!" Isaac yelled.

Elijah continued to push him in.

And then he spotted me.

His whole demeanor changed, and he walked more apprehensively.

"Avalon?" He asked in disbelief.

"In the flesh." I smiled.

Isaac turned around to say something to his brother, but was met with air.

How surprising, he left...

Isaac walked up to me, hands stuck in his pocket and he cleared his throat.

"Hey." He said shyly.

"Hello." I greeted, having no idea where my sprighty attitude came from.

"

It's crazy that we both happened to be at the came coffee shop." He started.

"Dude your brother set you up..." I mentioned, before bursting into laughter.

"Your laugh is really cute." He complimented, wearing a soft smile.

Even though the one who said that to me was sitting across from me, I couldn't help but think of the one fucking person I couldn't have.

It always reverted back to her.

Maybe it was because I really wanted to be her friend?

I don't fucking know.

"So um... About us.." He began, twiddling his fingers.

My eyebrows pulled together, remembering why I was here.

Was I ready for a relationship?

I barely even know who the fuck this dude is.

"I was thinking maybe we could take it slow n' shit and we might-"

"I am going to have to cut you off." I interrupted, wincing.

I thought of her, her sparkling ocean eyes, her voice from heaven, the smile that could cure depression, the goofiest person I will ever meet.

"I-I can't do this... Fuck, I'm gay!" I yelled out, pulling my hair.

I got up and began storming out of the shop.

I needed to clear my head.

"Wait Ava!" Isaac screamed after me.

Blurred out yells played in my head, coming from behind me but I didn't care. I needed to get the fuck out of here.

It was only then that I noticed something was wrong.

I turned my head, hearing the loud horn of a car.

Someone wouldn't make it out of there the same way they came.
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A/N

I called the charger a lifegiver 😂

Shit I feel like an asshole for doing this to y'all but I'm also so hyped now.

Yes the last sentence means someone got hit by the damn car I'm just not telling you who.

Gotta love me for that :D

Thanks for reading Racoons! <3

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