The Girl With The Blue Eyes

Chapter 12

Thursday is my first day back at school since my incident on Monday. Eli has been avoiding me all day. He didn't sit by me at lunch or hang out with me in the library for free period. And in all honesty I'm glad he's avoiding me, it saves me the trouble of having to do it myself.

But I'm also sad. I miss him terribly. I have never felt this dependent on someone before and it's scary. I want to just put everything aside and go back to normal but at the same time I don't want this to just slide past us. But thers's nothing to slide past us. If he says that he was at practice then he was at practice. Maybe he was just stressed that day and the last thing he needed was me nagging him.

After school I headed straight home before going to Eli's house.

Mom I need your phone. I wrote down an a piece of paper.

"Why?"

I need to talk to Eli and I'm going over to his house.

"Don't break it." She mocked. I stuck my tongue out at her.

The drive to his house was short. When I got there it felt like ages since I had been here last. 

I felt so stupid walking up to the door. I felt like I shouldn't be here, like I have no reason to come to him first and apologize. But I need to. 

I knocked on the door and a whole new wave of butterflies settled in my stomach. The door opened and Tristan's warm smile greeted me.

"Scar, what are you doing here?"

I came to apologize to Eli. Is he here?

He looked behind him like he was waiting for an answer to a question that was meant for him. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Eli on the stairs telling him to tell me that he was not here. What are we, 5?

"He's not here, probably out with some friends getting pumped up for the game, you know?"

I'm sorry but I really need to talk to him. I pushed passed him and ran up the stairs to Eli's room. It was closed. I knocked on the door to let him know that I was here. I heard him shuffle round in his room before he opened the door.

"Scar what are you doing here?"

I just decided to wait for you while you were out with some friends. I typed.

"Sorry about that. I though you were coming over to start some problems again."

I wanted to sock him in the face. To defend myself and let him have a piece of my mind. To let him know that he needs to be apologizing to me first. But I pushed these thoughts back and typed away.

I am sorry for assuming that you were lying the other day. If you say that you were at practice then you were at practice. I don't know why I thought you were lying. I'm just use to people treating me like shit.

"I think you do know the reason you assumed I was lying. And I think you feel like you shouldn't be here like I should be apologizing for you for no reason."

I just want to put this past us.

"Why did you think I was lying?"

Eli please.

"No, Why did you think I was lying? I want to know."

Because I know what my true feeling for you are! I love you and I've never felt this way about anyone and I don't know what the fuck to do about it. I guess I was just waiting for you mess something up to wake me up out of this fantasy.

"Y-you love me?"

Yes. I. Fucking. Love. You! Are you happy? 

"I don't know what to say."