Katana's Revenge

I Should Not Be Here

Song: Cold Feelings By Social Distortion (Acoustic) -Sorry only had lyrics with faster song...

The result of not listening to my dad and going to the party without his permission lands me being grounded. I'm freaking eighteen but since I still live at home under his roof and go to school I have to go by his rules.

Needless to say I'm stuck at home the rest of the weekend. So I stay in my room on purpose to be away from him. During the week I have to come home straight after school, making sure to leave my phone on the counter. Dad is so old school. Grounded means...grounded. No phone, no TV, no computer not unless it's for homework. He even makes sure all lights are off by ten, even if I'm not sleepy. However on Wednesday I have to stay over at school to plan our Christmas with the cheer squad and the band and he allows it because it is school related.

Every year we go to houses caroling around the city. Mostly to all the football players' houses and teachers and anyone else that is important to the town. We can't go to every house but still it's our little contribution to the city. Everyone loves it when we go around playing Christmas music and singing bringing cheer into the holidays. Us cheerleaders we sing and do somewhat cheers if that is what you want to call it. This is my forth year doing it at the high school. I'm surprised my dad even let's me do it but since it has been a tradition of the city since like the fifties he agrees to let me do it.

"So even though you are grounded...your dad is going to let you go Saturday night?" asks Sara.

"Yes but I have to go home straight after," I tell her and the other girls that are listening.

"I would hate to have your dad...Ana he has to be like the worst ever." She rolls her eyes. Please as if she has a better life than me.

"Sometimes...he just means well," I tell them as if I am defending him.

"Yeah...whatever," she smirks.

"He does. Yes he is strict but at least he isn't a drunk and likes to hit on me. I mean it could be worse right."

No one says anything. They all know my dad can be a pain in the ass when he wants to be. But not to me, they don't see it but he has never really been mean to me. Except for dragging my ass of a house full of my friends. Ok maybe he can be a little rough at times. I don't say anything back as I think about all the times he has actually been there for me.

We finish up practice and then I head home. Jake and I haven't gotten to spend much time together the past few days either. Between classes and about five minutes after school is all we get. We hold hands and kiss and if it was up to him we would spend the day in the back seat of his car making out.

But I know the school will call my dad saying that I have missed classes so that is not going to happen. I am hoping that we finish a little early on Saturday night so I can spend a few little minutes with him, hell at least long enough to get a major kiss or two you know. We have played around some, believe me when I say we have went far but not all the way. I'm not ready yet and if my dad ever found out he actually might kill me after all.

When I get home he is already there waiting on me. He is in the kitchen cooking. "Hey how everything go today?" He looks me over to make sure I am wearing appropriate clothes. He hates when I come home in my cheer uniform because it shows too much he says. Tonight I have on my sweats so I'm  pretty much covered.

"Fine." I set my backpack on the stool by the bar and walk over to the fridge to get out the pitcher of tea. He hands me a glass.

"Look I know you are still mad about being grounded but I'm only looking out for you." He turns to stir the pot of noodles.