Katana's Revenge

Is It Too Late To Say...

Song: I get to love you by Ruelle

When we arrived close to the island we took a smaller boat the rest of the way inland. There was an amazing beach house with oodles of windows and outside he had already had everything prepared. Now I am really starting to feel bad. He had all this planned out for us and now my dad is taking full advantage of it and I don't blame him, at least someone is using it. There are only a few chairs, with lavender roses lined the pathway leading to an arch that has massive deep purple roses covering it; my favorite color by the way. There is no telling where or how much he had to pay for them. Everything looks right out of one of those wedding magazines, the perfect getaway wedding.

It takes my breath away, so much that I'm crying again. On the main deck of the house he has a tent set up so that everyone can gather afterwards and eat, dance, you know all the after party stuff. ReAnn is flipping out over all the décor making a big deal about it. I don't know how to react. I mean shit, this amazing guy went all out for me, like all out.

I am so lost for words that I turn and walk back to the shoreline. He runs up beside me, grabbing my hand. "Ana I'm sorry. I should have talked to you about all of this. I just wanted it to be really special and all for you."

I can't look at him. I can't do this. What the hell? What was I thinking? I said no, didn't I. I'm not ready for this, to be married, to be a wife. My mind is over thinking everything and everything just feels so damn complicated all twisted up in my little head.

But he loves me; he would go to the extreme to make me happy. Hell he would probably even die for me and I said no, did I really mean to say no. The freaking tears, the damn tears why can't you stay away. Why do you have to come to me and ruin everything, you show my feelings. Can't you just go away?

They are still streaming down my face when he steps in front of me. I don't want to look up at him however when his hands reach up and grasp my chin to make me look up at him, I do for a split second and then try to turn closing my eyes back. I don't want him seeing me this upset.

"Katana my love, tell me what it is? What can I do? Do you want me to have them take everything down? I will. Hell no one has to get married today. We can save it for when you are ready. Ana please don't cry." He leans in to kiss my salty lips. Then pulls me into his chest.

I try so hard to hold back the tears but now I am really crying. "I'm....I'm... sorry. I didn't know you did this. I...I feel so bad. God you must think I'm horrible."

"That's not possible, baby don't feel bad. Hell at least your dad and Marcie can use it or I will get rid of all of it and no one has to use it. I just want you to be happy."

"I know. You are always thinking of me. Hell you even got my favorite color." I glance up at him with a smirk.

He smiles back at me, while taking his hand and wiping a few of the tears from my cheek. "What do you want? Tell me and that is what we will do?"

I start walking along the shore and he takes my hand into his. "What if I'm not wife material. What if I can't fill the void you need in your life, hell what if you want children and I'm not ready for that because I don't remember what it was even like to have a mother. I don't know if I can be what you want me to be."

"Hey...hey...I just want to be with you. I'm not saying I will be the perfect Husband but I will try damn hard to be. And being a dad, wait you do or don't want kids?"

"I don't know. I haven't really thought about it. I mean maybe one day but not any time soon. Do you?" I look over at him to catch his reaction.

"Maybe one day, at the moment I just want to spend every second of my day with you."