Katana's Revenge

Little Do You Know

Song: Little do you know by Alex and Sierra

I let the hot water pour over me. God it feels so amazing. When I get out I dry off and throw on a robe. I comb my hair out and put it up in a messy bun and then glace at the nice bruise along my cheek line. I fight back the tears that want to come out. There is a light knock on the door and he is on the other side.

"Babe it's ready."

"Ok be right out."

I hear him walk away and I stand there looking into the mirror. I exahale slowly oil wly before opening up the door. I walk to the table and sit down and he has a nice meal fixed. He also has the candles lit and a few flowers in a vase. Looks like a make up meal from the fight we had. He fixes me a glass of sprite and sits down.

When he looks up at me I glance up and try to smile. "Thanks for cooking."

"No problem."

I see the look in his face when he sees the bruise. I didn't bother covering it up. He stands up and walks over to me then gets down on his knees. He buries his head in my lap, while he takes my hands into his. "I'm sorry, baby I am so sorry I didn't mean to hurt you. God please forgive me, it will never happen again."

I don't know what to tell him as I hold back the tears. Seeing him like that last night was frightening. I was so scared not knowing what he was going to do. Not to mention the past I have had with Mr. Harper and Anthony and now here he is crying in my lap like a little boy and that only makes me hurt more.

He looks up at me and touches my cheek. "I'm sorry, please forgive me. I will do anything and I mean anything. You tell me what it is you want and I will do it."

I fight back the tears. "You scared me. I can't live this way and I won't."

"I know, I'm so fucking sorry."

"Raine, you just don't get it. I can't do this. You can't just get mad at me and hit me and act like it was nothing. You hurt me." I try to pull away from him but he refuses to let go of me.

"I will go back to therapy. I will take my meds...I..."

"Wait...you are not on your meds. Ehat the hell? You have to take them every day Raine."

"I know...I just missed a few days. I thought I was better without them. I thought everything was going good. I don't know what came over me. Come on babe what do you want from me?"

I shake my head in disbelief. "I just want you. I want us to be happy. Look you want to hang out with the guys, I'm ok with that but do it at their house. I have to sleep. I have to work. I have..."

"Ok...whatever you want just please don't ever shut me out like that again."

"Then don't ever touch me the way you did."

He leans in to kiss my hands and then works his way up to my lips. He kisses my cheek as if that is going to make it all better. He lets me finish eating and then carries me to the bedroom. His hands undress me and then he undresses himself and then he climbs in bed beside me.

So make up sex is alright but I would rather not argue to get it. I want us to be alright. I want us to be like before but now I have a feeling that it will happen again I just don't know when.

Weeks have passed since that first time he hit me. The bruises faded and are now gone without a trace. Raine switched to a third shift position at work. The good thing is I can sleep at night while he is at work. The bad thing is we rarely see each other so there really is not a time to be together except for the weekends. We try to spend quality time together and yes spend as much time as possible in bed on the weekends, if I'm not working that is.