Messy without a Doubt

I don't know

When Friday came it was just another day, that's what it was supposed to be. Just another school day, another day of seeing people that dislike him or don't know him.

But it wasn't another day, there was nothing special about this day to Naruto, not one thing but he just felt so disgusted with himself.

A squeezing feeling in his chest, his heart it hurt for no reason, his mind was just going with the flow he couldn't stop thinking about how awful he really is. About how awful he does things, he's the worst.

He just went to visit his mother and fathers grave yesterday after so long apart, why did he wait so long? Why did he sit there at the grave and not cry? Why didn't he cry there? Why does he want to cry now? In the middle of class.

Naruto shook his head he could feel a gaze on him, no doubt Kiba or Sasuke they were worried. He was worried, he didn't know what was wrong. He was sweating, he was sweating a lot, he might smell now.

His heart beat was speeding up and he just kept sweating. His eyes closed and he put his head down in his arms trying to quietly control his breathing. It wasn't working! Nothing was working. He needed to leave.

He's been sitting in this classroom for 13 minutes exactly and he's never felt more enclosed in a tight space, he can't handle it. He NEEDS to leave.

Naruto stood up quickly he tried to walk out silently, he tried.

"Mr. Uzumaki, where are you going?" The teacher asked he stopped whatever he was doing and stared at Naruto.

Everyone stopped what they were doing and stared at Naruto. Narutos face turned red his hands started to get clammy and he couldn't stop sweating!

Tears, he could feel them they were going to fall they were going to start building up like a dam and then the dam would break and he would be there standing in the middle of his classroom crying.

"I-I need to leave" Naruto quickly left the room without a second glance. His heart felt like it was going to explode. He ran into the bathroom and fell against the wall. Naruto put his head in between his legs and started to breath calmly.

Naruto screamed, he didn't want to but his head was just telling him to, he needed to scream. He did. He screamed into his back pack and let the tears fall from his face.

Naruto cried and cried. His hands were shaking as he held the bag against his face and screamed. "Why?" Naruto cried his words were broken up as he cried.

Naruto heard the door open and footsteps approach him, he doesn't need anyone talking about this he doesn't need anyone making fun of him.

Naruto looked around his vision blurred due to tears building up. What's wrong with him.

Sasuke quickly ran over to Naruto's side he grabbed Naruto's hands and held them in front of his face "Naruto. What's the matter?" Sasuke frantically asked.

Naruto cried and shook he's head back and forth. "I don't know." He looked at Sasuke the tears not stopping the aching in his heart not leaving, "Sasuke" he cried holding on to the boy as if he would disappear in a second. "I don't know" he sobbed.

Sasuke rested the boys head against his chest and pulled him into his lap. "Why are you crying?" Sasuke softly asked. His voice was soothing for Naruto. He only ever hears that voice when they are together. Alone.

But right now as Naruto sits on Sasukes lap in the bathroom floor, they're not alone because at any moment anyone could walk in.

Naruto sniffed and wiped away the fresh wave of tears. "I'm a mess. I'm a mess. I hate everything about myself." Naruto looked at Sasukes face and tightened his grip on Sasukes shirt.

"Why do you say you love me?" Naruto croaked. His calm composure crumbling, there was nothing calm about Naruto.

Sasuke stared at Naruto, the beautiful blue eyed blonde was the complete opposite of him in many ways. Yet here they were. "Because I love you"

Naruto shook his head. "How can you say that when there is so much wrong with me? I'm disgusting, look at me" Naruto looked down at his body his eyes moving across every single part. And then he got to his wrists.

Naruto yanked his sleeves up and reveled the scars. "Look at these! I'm disgusting! I ruined myself. And yet you say you love me?"

"I do love you. I love everything about you. I love the way you look away when you're embarrassed, or when you put your finger on your chin you think, the way your eyes sparkle when you write" Sasuke grabbed Naruto's face "I love the scars on your body." Sasuke brought Naruto's arms up to his face and kissed each scar on Naruto's arm.

Because perhaps without those scars, this Naruto would never exist. The old one would and Sasuke even though he loved the old Naruto. He can't remember one thing about him.

Because Sasuke loves this Naruto now. Forever and always.

Naruto watched in awe and shock, his mind was still replaying the words in his mind, the feeling of Sasukes lips on his wrists made his skin hot. Sasukes touch lit a fire in him.

Naruto would never know he has the same affect on Sasuke.

"You help me, you stop the words in my head." Naruto wrapped his arms around Sasukes shoulders. "You stop the insanity. Just by being here with me, you are like my savior? Why is that?" Naruto whispered into Sasukes neck.

"I love you"

"I love you too"

Naruto rested his head on Sasukes chest and relaxed, Sasuke helped him. Sasuke always helps him and that scares Naruto. He leans on Sasuke so much that he can't imagine going through one of those and making it out okay without Sasuke.

But what about when Sasuke isn't there?