- Maine -
Commitments are done early today. Minsan naiisip ko na nakakapagod din gawin ng paulit-ulit nalang ang nga bagay pero, wala naman akong choice di ba?
Its too early for me to be in bed but I indulge myself, I rarely got this chance to just lay down in bed and get lazy right? I am just scrolling down my IG feeds when I came across Rizza's latest post. It was a candid shot of Rj laughing, his eyes close and head thrown back in so much laughter, beside him is a girl, looking so annoyed. The picture was captioned:
' I just have to stop and take a snap of these two adorable dorkiesssss.. Hala sige mag-away pa kayo!'
Rj wasnt tagged in the photo and so is the girl but, after a while, my notification started to go balistic! Tagging me with the same picture they had screen shot and asking me who it was. In my mind, I want to answer, 'I am asking myself the same question actually.'
I tried to scroll on my twitter tweet this time, more and more photos of Rj and his family with this girl are being spread online, all are paparazzi shots I guess.
Then realization suddenly hit me. It was like a lightling striking the land.
How I see Rj on studio extra happy and jolly, how his eyes shone like the happiest kid who won the biggest award in class. How he discreetly typed on his fone during JFAAFJ whenever we are seated with the panel. And how he can look and talk at me like how he does to his other friends. He used to be 'extra' when it comes to me before.
It was one of the longest night. I kept on tossing and turning in my bed, ewan ko ba. Balisang balisa ang pakiramdam ko.
My recent heartbreak isnt that really heart breaking. Maybe because, I was just waiting for that reason to be free from that someone I choosed over Rj. After Rj had gone to his hiatus, I thought its all for the best. We we're never been the same after I return to work after my bday vacation. I guess, its a mutual instinct that we somehow distance ourselves with each other. But when he's away, I started to question my decisions. I know the pain I had put him through ever since I admited dating someone else, but he manage to keep a cool slate anyway. His absence made me feel anxious. He never really took a longgggg vacation from work and that is the first time. It dawn on me that, I am one of the reason why he did just like that. Maybe to move on. From me, from us. And his absence made me realize how I needed him, his presence, his calming power whenever I need it. We had lost our communication for the past months during his hiatus, but even before that, our interactions become limited.
I woke up extra early today. Ni hindi ko alam kung nakatulog ba ako pero gusto ko ng pumasok. Its Saturday so I knew that, I would see him today.
Pagpasok ko sa host room, there is only Tita Rubs and Ms. P and Pauleen. They are huddled in the table and seems busy looking at the the fone laid on the table.
" Hi! Good Morning!"
They looked at each other before giving me each smile, lumapit ako sa kanila to gave each a buss in the cheek.
Ruby: ang aaga naman natin.
Pia: Saturday eh, walang traffic.
Maine: Kaya nga po tyaka, ang aga ko din nagising kasi.
Pauleen: Ahm, Maine? Di ba, close padin naman kayo ni Alden?
Maine: Uhm, okay naman po, bakit?
Pia: Mejo awkward ito pero, alam naman namin na what you had with him will be forever special, what I mean is, yung friendship nyo right?
Maine: Oo naman po.
Pauleen: May nababanggit ba sayo si Alden? I mean someone he's dating?
Maine: Wala pa naman po.
Ruby: Curious kasi kami sa mga viral photos last night. Mukhang may meet the family na naganap.
Pauleen: Promise, hindi namin sasabihin na sinabi mo, Menggay. Spill it.. please?
Maine: Ahm, wala po akong alam talaga eh
Pia: Grabe! May nakasilo na sa --
Naputol ang ano mang sasabihin ni Ms.P ng may pumasok sa host room, ladies and gentlemen, Alden Richards himself.
Sabay sabay pa kaming umayos ng tayo at ngumiti na parang mga magkakaklaseng nahuling nagchichismisan sa prof.
Rj: Good Morning ladies!
His smile reach his eyes, he looks good as well.
Ruby: Blooming ang pambansang bae.. May sasabihin ka ba samin?
0 I actually see him blush as he nervously scratch his nape.
Rj: 'Ta Rubs naman!
Pia: Aysus! may inililihim!
I quietly observe him while he is being grilled by the three.
But one thing is for sure.
He had moved on.
From me.
From the supposed to be us.
