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-Rj-
I look for a place where we can park. And when I did, Maine is still crying quietly. I know she's trying to stop but seems like she cant yet. New batch of fresh tears are falling each time.
" Maine.."
" You dont have to say anything, Rj. Alam ko naman eh. All of them know that we ended up like this because of me. Kasalanan ko. And Im sorry I hurt you. I deserve all this pain."
" Tahan na. Please.."
" Eversince you told me about your marriage, I always think of the what ifs. What if I didnt mess up? What if I didnt choose to be selfish? Kung mas nagpasensya at naghintay pa ko? Maybe we're happy now. Maybe, just maybe.. Its me whom you are married today. And the mother of your son. "
" Maine, everything happened because this is what's meant to be. I am not the one for you. "
" You can say that.."
" Menggay.."
" Do you still remember, Rj? How you always tell me that we are God's gift to each other? That we are meant to be together? "
" Because that's you are to me, Maine. My friendship with you is a gift from God."
" Right.."
" Maine.."
" I love you, Rj. There are times that I wish this is just all a nightmare and I will wake up in your arms again. I wish I knew better before. I wish I didnt made a mistake on giving up. But I can only wish right? Because ..--"
Niyakap ko sya. I dong want to hear her pain. It hurts seeing her cry like this because of me. Naramdaman kong natigilan sya, but she hug me tight too.
" I wish I could turn back the time, Rj. "
" Tahan na. We did not end up together, yes. But Im always here for you. I got your back, just like the old times. I promise you that. Remember?"
She cried harder. Soaking my shirt with her endless tears.
When she finally calm down, I drove her to Pasig where she lives in a condominium.
" Are you okay?"
She smiled saddly
" I have to, right? Sige na. Hinihintay kana ni Nia."
She is about to open the door but I stop her.
I drove to the basement parking.
" You dont have to stay. May naghihintay sayo."
" She knows who you are to me, Maine. She'll understand."
I went up with her to her pad.
" Go, change. Dito lang ako."
She went to her room. I sat on the couch and rested my head on the back rest. Thinking. Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog ako.
Hindi ko alam kung gaano ako katagal nakatulog. But I woke up the the heady smell that I cant never forget. Warm arms tightly wrap around me, head resting on my chest. I didnt dare move. She was peacefully sleeping, her face is tears striken thou. My arms are around her too, as if they have their own mind.
Maine and I had been through a lot, I can say. And I know that my pain from what happened to us in the past is nothing compared to the pain she is feeling now. And my heart ache for her. My mind and my heart were suddenly filled with pain for our broken hearts.
I have a wife and a son now. But I cant just let Maine go through this pain. Hindi ko alam kung bakit.
Maine suddenly jerk. Woke up starled.
" Hey.. "
She cup my face and wrap her arms around my neck. Burried her face on my neck.
" Rj.."
" Okay ka lang?"
I felt my neck being damp with her tears.
" Rj.. "
" Hey.. Tahan na. "
" I dont think I can loose you."
" W-what?"
" Rj, can you be mine too?"
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At dahil gusto pa kitang saktan, may book 2!
Yes, mga bes, What ifs will be Too late's book two! See you!
