Save Me

Chapter 30

"I know it's getting late baby but I want to talk to you about a few things."  

Jared's voice trailed off but he kept his arm draped over mine, his hand cupping my shoulder.   Usually when someone says that they have a few things to talk about with you, something good doesn't usually follow.   Why my mind always goes to the negative, I'll never know but it did.   I instantly thought something was wrong.   

Mentally bracing myself, I took a breath then replied,     "Okay, what do you want to talk about?"

Jared shook his head,   "Don't look so scared, Vivie.   It's nothing bad."    with a smile he kissed my forehead hoping to reassure me.

My God, I was that obvious?!   

"I'm sorry.   I'm still kind of all over the place but please, talk to me."    I said, turning my eyes up towards his and smiled.

Shifting himself, instead of him laying on his back and I in the nook of his arm, when he moved, he turned onto his side.   My head rested on his arm and we were now able to look each other in the eyes.    Unnerving as hell unless he was honest and whatever it was he wanted to talk about wasn't bad.  

"Well,"   he began as he used his fingertip to tuck a lock of hair behind my ear,   "it's probably a little late but we never talked about birth control.    I just wanted to be sure..."

Now I needed to reassure him.    Before he could even finish his sentence I was interrupting.

"Already taken care of.   I've got the best birth control on the planet.    I have an IUD, the best on the market."

He looked relieved,   "Okay good."    

That kind of lead me to a question myself but I wasn't sure how to ask it.   Laying here face to face didn't make that any easier either.   

"I have a question..."   

This could be ugly if it's taken the wrong way but I needed to ask for myself.    This was especially true considering his reputation.   Personally, I don't even WANT to know if there's any truth to any of it because I don't want to spend another minute thinking about all the groupie stories and the barely legal friends with benefits.   Still, the question needed to be asked. 

"Is there anything I needed to worry about?" 

I literally asked that question and cringed at the same time.    I didn't want anything other than reassurance he was healthy because my health is important to me no matter who I'm with.   

It took him a minute, he looked a bit confused, almost not understanding what I was asking.   Not that I could blame him,  I couldn't be any more indirect than I was.   Seriously though, PLEASE let him get what I'm trying to ask but not ask.

Finally figuring it out,   "Oh! Oh, no....no, there's nothing you need to be worried about.   I had a full physical right before we left for the tour.   All good."  

"Me too."   I nodded.   

If I was willing to ask, I had to be willing to answer too.

Jared grinned as if I just said something funny,   "I had no doubt.   You're such a smart girl." 

Bending his lips down to kiss mine, his hand caressed my back.   

"What's so funny?" 

He laughed again,   "Nothing!   I can understand why you'd ask me but it just seemed silly for you to answer that too."

I shook my head,   "Well, you never know!   I'm sorry."

"I know.... I know.   You're just sitting there all shy looking.   It's cute."