イタズラな KISS ~3 ✔

Irie Yuki - 1.3

Irie Yuki 3: A Fever To Say Something

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I don't know that having too much to think makes me this hungry in this middle of the night. I didn't even manage to finish the book. I need something to eat. I'm sure mom left me something in the refrigerator.

I left my bed with this heavy heart. Dammit. What happened lately never left in my mind. It is just so clouded that I can't see it in my own eyes.

"Yuki. I'm sure you've been hungry. You made a pass in dinner."

I saw Onii-chan in the kitchen again. He's alone.

"Nii-chan. You can't sleep too?"

"Ya. Kotoko kicked me out of the bed again. I had my head hurt. That baka."

"Daijoubou?" I asked.

"I'm fine. I've been used to it but it just comes unexpectedly." and he sighed. "Thought to have milk before going back to sleep. You should eat, Yuki. Not eating anything won't help you get through of that."

I was amused. Nii-chan wasn't like this before. Come to think of it, he's been so gentle since Kotoko is beside him. He's the Nii-chan I know but he seems so different when he's with Kotoko. It's my first to realize that Nii-chan changed in a good way. He is so cold before that I thought it's so cool but the way his features warm-up is a way cooler. So... this is Nii-chan right now.

But I still don't understand. The way I am feeling about Konomi. The way I do things with her. It's like there's a wall of contradiction. I keep running and hitting it. I don't even know how to make a move to pass it. It's just so hard.

But that guy earlier made me lose my cool. I want to punch him. I want to... but I just can't act cowardly like that. Because I am a genius. I won't use my hands for that petty matter... I have my head. Just no way.

...But did he go to Konomi? What did he say? Did he confess again? What would Konomi say? Will she stay with me? Would she still be the Konomi I used to look up to in the morning? Would I be able to see her smile? Would I...

Dammit. What am I saying?

"By the way, it's not in my concern but you're acting so strange, Yuki. Wakaranai desu, demo... I'm just curious if you're acting with yourself today. It doesn't seem like one. If that is because of Kotoko... gomen. I'm apologizing on behalf of her. I'm going to punish her for delaying the vacation."

"Ah. I don't understand the way Kotoko thinks, Nii-chan. Do you understand her thinking?"

"What is this? Is this another brother to brother talk? It brings me that time, huh."

"I'm just curious. Wakanai... I don't know how Konomi thinks. I just don't get it. I don't know when to start. It irritates me. Dammit."

"I don't know if this helps you but since Kotoko came into this house, my life is always in a wreck. I have trouble in dealing with her messes but... I didn't know that I have been getting used to her every day... that I couldn't any longer imagine without her. I can do 100% on my own but until now... it's a mystery to think that I still need her 0%." and then Nii-chan pauses, "Yuki." he called me like he wants me to listen, "You don't have to know what Konomi is thinking... you have to know what do you think about her. I'm sure you'll understand. I have been disgusted in all those human emotions but I'm glad Kotoko made me understand it a little bit. You should trust her. I mean... you should hold a little bit. If you want something, you should hold it even if you're being selfish. Kotoko might be stupid and full of troubles but I can't let someone hold her that way. She's mine."