イタズラな KISS ~3 ✔

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Epilogue Thirty-Two: Challenge (Part One)

I woke up early in the morning. This is the day that we have to leave Oji-chan's house. I sat on the bed, I don't feel the bright morning outside our window. Irie-kun is sleeping beside me but there's something I felt that I can't reach. My heart was feeling heavy since last night. I've felt this before... but I'm not used to it.

I'm worried about Irie-kun.

Did I do something wrong? What happened last night really bothered me. Irie-kun acted as he hates me... like he doesn't want me anymore... he ignored me last night. I waited for him to come back... but he took so long. I wanted to ask him where he'd gone last night but I can't move in my position... I can't stop pretending that I was asleep. He sat for a while on the bed, and I am facing in the opposite direction hoping that he looked at me even just for once. But he didn't. He spaced out there... facing the walls... and I wish I could get into his mind, I wanted to know what he's thinking.

Did he get tired of me?

That question was well kept inside my heart... I'm trembling in fear whenever something will remind me of that. Every time I feel like my vision is failing...I always think of him... that amid the darkness, I'm facing soon, he will shine there, the same as always, as the man that I've always loved.

'You went and turned the red flag white, darling, and you waved it...'

I looked at his back, and it seems like this is the only thing I could do for this morning. I wanted to touch him, as much as I could. I really wanted to keep him for myself, hug him all I want but... it seems like I don't have the right anymore. Knowing him, he'll make a distance between us.

'You've always had a way with words, why can't you explain it then?'

I stood up. I will only make it worst... talking about my surging feelings inside my heart... screaming with sirens... I don't know how hurt it was, but I don't want to be greedy. I don't want to think of something else. I promise him that I'll stay... whatever will happen. But if ever he will think to break that promise... I don't know. Maybe... maybe... I have to find the strength to leave him. But... what? I shouldn't think of that anymore.

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"Ohayou, Minna-san!"

I screamed when I found everyone gathering in the living room, filling themselves coffee to warm this cold morning. I put a big bright smile as I raised my hands in the air, hoping that this feeling will be gone...along with my thoughts. As much as I could, I don't want to be negative. A thought had crept into my head, going back to that old times.

"It's too early to be loud, Kotoko Baka-chii!"

Elena was so shocked... she almost spilled her milk when she tried to sip on her cup while reading the newspaper.

"Oh, you can read a lot of Kanjis too, Elena-chan? These are difficult!"

Shimatta. It's really cold... since last night.

"I'm not Elena! I'm Rana! You idiot, you've been here for days and you still didn't memorize our names! You're a disgrace to Naoki Ni-chan!"

"Sorry, sorry. I'm still having trouble memorizing your names... but trust me, you all have similarities to Irie-kun so I will always recognize you as his relatives... whenever will meet." I gave her a reassuring thought and I am still amazed at how she read a newspaper full of difficult Kanji's. Speaking of me, I still need to have a dictionary with me and I will take more time in trying to read all of it.