イタズラな KISS ~3 ✔

The Grand Finale pt. 1

The Grand Finale: Part One

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"WHAT D-DID YOU SAY, YOU IDIOT! DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF?! DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GOING INTO?! KOTOKO! TAKE OUT THAT BRAIN OF YOURS AND LET IT THINK! ADOPTION IS NOT AN EASY THING! DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME, YOU IDIOT! CAN YOU THINK IT OVER AGAIN ABOUT YOUR DECISION?!"

"Kita Senjueki no purattoho-mu..."

Irie-kun is yelling at me again. I expect Irie-kun to be mad at me but I did not expect that he would get so angry and lose his voice. He looked so wretched. Sighs. I am sorry, Irie-kun... but I can't help it but this baby is so cute. Looking at this baby... gosh! He smiled! I am really determined to adopt him now that I saw his smile!

"Gin'iro no kaisatsu..."

"Kotoko, do you hear me?" he took a step forward. "You can't just adopt that baby. Please... think about it." he tried to calm down. "Now... please give that baby back to Nurse Shimizu and let's go to your check-up. We are so late now."

"But who would adopt this baby?" I looked at Irie-kun and then back to the sleeping baby. "If I can't adopt him... who would adopt him?" I asked Irie-kun... and searched in his eyes the answer even if it were painted with pitch black.

"Omoidebanashi to omoide fukashi..."

"There would be many who would adopt that baby and it's not you..." he tried to explain but I still can't understand. I am getting teary-eyed. It's like I felt something special for the first time... and I want it... but I can't have it.

"Koshikaketa benchi de..."

"Why can't it be me? Am I not a good mother?" and then the tears rolled on my cheeks on their own. And I felt so sad right now. It's like there's a big needle pierced in my heart.

"Bokura wa nani mo mienai mirai o chikaiatta..."

"You're crying again..." he sounded like he was regretting. "Look, maybe you're confused... maybe it's just your pregnancy hormones. Let's take it slowly... but you just can't do anything you want right now. Do you understand? For this time, please listen to me, Kotoko." Irie-kun tried to hush me down. He put his hands on my shoulder gently. "I admit, the baby is so cute," he said honestly and I know he means it. "It's like I am handing him for adoption." I cried so hard. I heard Irie-kun cursed, "Fuck, why are you like this?" he murmured.

"Samusa ni koraeta kigi to neko ga marude bokura no koto de..."

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"Okusan wa please get ready... we will start our examination at this time and... we will figure out the gender of this baby... I am sure you two are looking forward to it. Is this your first time?" Dr. Fujioka, my doctor welcomed us with a great smile though we were late for thirty minutes.

"Tsubomi o sakaseyou to mi o yurashiteru suteki ni waratteiru..."

"We already have one." Irie-kun answered.

"I know it, Dr. Irie. I just wanted to hear your wife's answer if this is her first time to go on her check-ups with you."

"Aseranai de ii itsuka hanataba ni natte okureyo..."

"You are saying like I didn't accompany her before..." Irie-kun can't ignore it. On the other day, he told me how he hates himself for not being around with me during my pregnancy with Kotomi... and he promised that he will always be there resulting in this... he is so strict to me. I can't even do what I want.