イタズラな KISS ~3 ✔

One Shot-13

One Shot-13: Life in Kobe (Part Three)

There are two days left before the graduation ceremony.

Kotoko and I are still in the bad shape. I know that our conversations are going okay but I miss her when she's carefree and messy. I miss her stupid smile, her clingy attitude. She doesn't avoid me anymore and I have to believe that at least... but every time I look at her, right in her eyes, she would step back and avoid my stare.

I don't want Kotoko and me to be like this. We are not supposed to be like this. Not before I leave for Kobe.

I didn't have the chance to speak with her about Kobe. And I think that it is not right to talk about inside the house. I prefer to be somewhere quiet... a place where it is just the two of us.

I secretly watch her from afar when she's picking up the plates and put them all into the sink. Her familiar lullaby becomes audible across the living room. Oto-san, my father in law got home early and asked, "Oh, have you told Kotoko about bringing her with you in Kobe?" I put my book down, I've been such an ass of attempting to talk to her and then back down when I got the chance to. "I haven't got the perfect timing father," I told him. He nodded. "I think your first decision is the right one to do. My daughter is so clumsy, you will be very busy with your internship. You wouldn't have the time to look after her. She depends on you." he sighed. "As her father, I'm sorry if my daughter wouldn't understand that. All she thinks is that she loves you. She loves you a lot."

I know, no one can love me more than Kotoko loves me. Her love is priceless. And I don't think I wouldn't be here by now if it wasn't for her. And I love her too... I just don't know how to show it to her in the ways she declares it to everyone. But I love her.

Thinking about leaving for Kobe without her just emptied a part of me. But I just think back to the time when her happy face that I should become a person that can help people. I can't forget her face, how sure she is that a cold-blooded person like me can be someone significant to the public, a person who can aid help. She made me into this human... a different person than I had so many struggles to find. My life was boring... thinking that what is the purpose of going to college if I can learn by just reading books? Kotoko made me wrong. In her clumsy little ways, she put me on the right path that I will never think of in a hundred years.

She believes in me. I hope, up until now, no matter what will happen, she still believes in me.

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"Kotoko, my internship will start at 7 a.m. I have made breakfast, you have to eat now." I looked at my watch, it's nearing the call time.

Kotoko slept like a log on the bed, her pajama shirt was slightly lifted above her stomach, showing some part of her underboob. I pulled her shirt down and covered her with the thick comforter. I called her one more time, my way of calling her name was due to the worry I felt inside. "Kotoko, at least, you have to get prepared for now,"

I don't want to leave her. I'm afraid that if I leave her behind, something bad might gonna happen. We are alone in Kobe, my family is staying well in Tokyo... and I can't guarantee that my mom would always check on her... it's hours here from Tokyo. My mom might become tired of visiting. And besides, this baka had just transferred to another school, she might have a hard time adjusting to a new school environment. New class, new friends, new teachers... everything will be new to her... plus, we are not in the same university. And we would spend less time together.