Promises🤞🏻 [Jaegan]

|Chapter 10|

JUSTINS POV:

as we lay peacefully on his couch, his arm around me and my head on his shoulder, i can't help but feel the guilt. the guilt that i kissed someone else while i know i love jayden. i do love him.

i snap back into reality and notice him staring at me, his cheeks pink. i smile a little, looking back at him.

"what?" i ask all smiley. he's so handsome.

"i just love you so much, and i'm so sorry." he says quietly, running his fingers through my hair.

"i love you too." i say and we continue watching our movie.

after being there for a few hours, we say our goodbyes and i drive home. once i get back, it's mid way through the afternoon and raegan is still at the house. i take a deep breath before walking through the door of our house.

"hey." i say first and look at the sitting room and raegan and anthony literally on top of each other cuddling. they sit up a little once they see me and ant smiles.

"hi justin. want to watch something with us?" he asks me and i sigh quietly to myself. i mean i don't want to be alone right now.

"sure." i say and walk to the couch where they are, sitting down. i see raegan looking at me and i decide to say something first.

"hi rae." when those words leave my mouth, his eyes are on me again. his eyes are so captive!

"hey, how was jayden's?" he ask and ant makes a slightly confused face, but tries to ignore it.

"it was really good, he apologized and we are all good now." for now..we are only good for now.

raegan nods and his eyes switch back to the television. i slouch on the couch, watching whatever they are watching. what's going through raegan's mind right now? when are we telling anthony? when are we telling jayden? ugh that's all i can think about.

i look to my right at the both of them and now notice they are kissing. raegan has his hand swiftly on his waist and ant has his arms around rae's neck. my heart starts to speed up a little at the sight of this.

i go back to looking forward, trying to ignore them. i can still see them through the corner of my eyes. i hear a little laugh come from ant.

"not here." he whispers every so slightly and i don't dare look at them. i don't want to, i don't like this at all.

i get up from the couch and walk into the kitchen. i open the refrigerator and take out a water.

"justin, can you get raegan and i a soda please?" anthony yells from the sitting room and i grab two sodas, walking into the sitting room and handing it to them.  "thank you."

raegan just gives me a little awkward smile and i walk away again. i grab my water and make my way to the stairs.

"hey wait." i hear footsteps and then a tug at my arm. i turn around and of course see anthony pulling me back down. he goes right away and gives me a tight hug, and i return. "i love you jay."

"i love you too ant." i say back and bunch the back of his shirt in my fists.

"so jayden's went good?" he asks, pulling away. i nod my head.

"yeah it did. i can tell he's sorry and he's okay with all of us now." i nod my head as i talk, fiddling with my fingers a little. i cant make this awkward.

"oh thank god. so now everything is all okay?" he asks and my face drops. i quickly glance and raegan and he's rapidly shaking his head. i bring my head back forward and just nod my head for the millionth time today, keeping my head down.

"i'm going to go upstairs." i say and quickly step up the stairs until i'm to the top and to my room.

this is bad. this is so bad. everything would have been fine if raegan and i never kissed. how could we?! why would we?! what the hell is wrong with me?

*knock knock*

"what?" i ask and my door opens. of course it's him.

"justin." he says and shuts my door. he comes closer to me and i start to get nervous. "we can't tell him. we can't tell anybody. think about it, hes so happy now and you and jayden just got better. let's just forget about it."

"i cant." i tell him and shake my head. "we did something bad and we need to own up to our consequences. i've had guilt all day rae."

"shit happens. everyone screws up. why do they need to know?" he ask a little louder starting to get frustrated.

"are you serious?" i ask, clearly disgusted with what he's saying right now. "they need to know!"

"they don't, justin. everything can be okay now, it can go back to the way it was." he's tapping his foot quickly and i can see how anxious he is.

"if you don't want to tell him with me, i guess it'll just be me telling both of them. anthony wouldn't like you not being there. he wants and deserves the truth, not a secret. if we let it out maybe he'll just accept our mistake." i explain to him and he just stares at me. i can tell he doesn't want to, but he knows we need to. he knows it.

"fine. okay fine." he says and seems to take in what i said and agree. he whips his face and i walk closer to him slowly. i take his arm away from his face and our eyes connect once he sees me right in front of him.

"it'll be okay rae, and you know it's not fair for us to keep this from them. anthony is more understanding, i feel like he will get over it faster then jayden." i say and gently let go of his arm. i swallow a lump in my throat.

"hopefully they both get over it." he says quietly. i nod, hoping as well.

sorry i kinda suck ass :)
what's uppp i'm so bored wooo
show some love this book cause no one barely reads jaegan shit anymore