Promises🤞🏻 [Jaegan]

|Chapter 12|

JUSTINS POV:

i got to jayden's house quicker than i really wanted to. i walk up to his front door and knock twice. i stand there, tapping my foot lightly on his porch. the door opens and a big smile forms on his face. he pulls me in and hugs me sweetly, kissing my head.

"hi love." i hear him say as he pulls away from me. i give him a little smile, hoping he doesn't notice it's totally fake.

"hey, um i need to talk to you." i tell him, grabbing his hand. he nods.

"okay. are you alright?" he asks me gently and i just shake my head 'no'. his face turns into worry.

"okay let's go up to my room." he suggests and i follow him upstairs. as we get up to his room, i look around acting like i've never seen his room before. i can't avoid this.

"jayden-" i sit on his bed and stop, putting my hands on my legs, sitting with terrible posture.

"what is it?" he asks sitting next to me. "you can tell me anything." he brings his hand up and rubs my cheek gently with his thumb.

"i did something bad." i start off with and he drops his hand, getting closer to me. i slowly scoot back, knowing he won't want to be close to me in a minute.

"what's going on? let me help." i swallow and look into his eyes. no more secrets. no more lying. i need to own up. that's all i've ever been taught to do in my life.

"raegan and i kissed." the words come out like i'm reading a book. i hate those four words, at least when i'm talking to other people..

"what?" he asks, clearly very shocked with what just came out of my mouth.

"i'm sorry, it just happened. i didn't want it to." i blurt out as he furrows his eyebrows and looks around his room, looking anywhere but at me.

"when?" his voice cracks the slightest.

"the other day." as i say that, i know exactly what he's thinking. it was right after our fight.

"so-" his chokes on his words, lost on what to say. "so you kissed raegan after our fight?" i knew it.

"yes, yes i did but it was a big mistake. i'm so sorry." i try to get close to him this time but he shakes his head, standing up off his bed and walking away from me.

"do you blame me now for wanting you to stop being with them?" he asks. oh shit.

"what? don't say that please, it doesn't connect to what you said at all. i was just upset and it just happened." i explain to him, standing up also.

"you are ridiculous, justin." he says and simply turns around, walking out of his room quickly. i just follow him, going down the stairs fast. "get out."

"what?" i ask in disbelief in what he just said to me.

"i cannot believe i ever apologized for thinking i was acting stupid. i was right this whole time. your eyes were and are not fully on me. maybe not at all on me." he keeps his voice calm, but i can hear the anger and hurt when he speaks. i cant blame him, he's right.

"i fucked up and i am so sorry jayden. i love you. i don't love raegan." i say to him, this whole conversation breaking my heart.

he shakes his head, opening his front door for me. "i don't want to see you right now. let me think about this."

"but-"

"dammit justin get out!" he raises his voice and pushes me with both of his hands, me tripping and stumbling out onto his porch. i hiss, rubbing my elbows and the sides of my arms. i look up at him, and he's just looking at me, his face full of anger.

he shuts his front door in my face, as i'm still on the ground. i was afraid that was going to happen. he's put his hands on me before, so why wouldn't he do it now?

i pick myself up, wiping myself off and walking to my car. i get in and my eyes fill with tears. i quickly wipe them away and drive back to my house, seeing anthony's car in the driveway.

he doesn't want to see me, and i don't blame. he wouldn't let me talk about what jayden did to me. so i pull out my phone and text raegan.

me: can i come over?

raegan: yes. are you okay?

me: i don't know.

raegan: come right over.

i back out of the driveway and go right to raegan's house, not bothering to even go inside my house. once i got to raegan's house, i get out of my car and walk up to his door. it already open it. rae comes down the stairs and opens his screen door for me.

"what happened?" he asks, letting me in. i don't say anything and just wrap my arms around his neck. he shuts his door, wrapping his arms around me. i did my head into his shoulder.

"i feel like you are the only person i have right now." i say quietly. i lift my head, our eyes meeting.

"he told me he should of never apologized or telling me to stay away from you guys. and he kind of pushed me out of his house." i say and he looks at me weird.

"he pushed you out of his door?" he asks clarifying. i nod my head.

"yeah. i uh, he shoved me and i fell onto his porch." i tell him.

he has his hands on my hips and my arms are still around his neck. i love how we are standing. no no i can't.

"justin, he keeps putting his hands on you. what if it gets worse?" he asks gently.

"who knows if he will ever forgive me. or anthony. i don't know what to do." i say and slowly drop my arms, but still keeping my hands on his neck.

"we will figure this out. it'll all be okay soon." he speaks slowly and gently. i hope he's right.

"are you sure?" i ask, as i notice our faces getting closer. he rubs my hips and nods his head.

"i'm s-"

"shh." i shush him, looking at his lips before connecting mine with them.

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