Promises🤞🏻 [Jaegan]

|Chapter 13|

JUSTINS POV:

i ran my fingers through his hair, our lips moving in sync together. our lips lock and unlock with each other's. why am i doing this? and why do i like it for the second time?

he pulls away and drags me over to his couch. i climb onto his lap and reconnect our lips. his hands roam my whole body, including slipping under my shirt. my fingers lock into his hair and i gently pull his head back a little.

"what are we doing?" i pull away for a second, asking him that question. i'm breathing a bit quickly and heavily.

"shh, just kiss me." he whispers and our lips find their way back to each other's. it's like he read my mind. i wanted to do the same thing.

we don't know what we are dont right now. i cant think to pull away from him. i just want him so bad in this moment. i'm not thinking about ant or jayden or anybody. they are all mad. what else am i supposed to do?!

i take my hands off of his neck and tug the bottom of his shirt, starting to lift it. we pull away once again and he slips his shirt over his head and throws it to the side. he kisses me again quickly, our lips desperate to be colliding.

my hands slowly go down his chest and stomach, feeling his muscular body. he wraps his arms around my back, pushing me closer to him. i've never kissed anyone like this. i've never made out with someone hard where i felt like i needed their lips to be with mine.

once my hand grabs onto his belt, he pulls away and we both realize how much we are panting.

"justin-" is all i have to hear him say before i realize what has just happened again. we are officially the stupidest people on earth.

"oh my god. i'm so sorry." i say quickly and he shakes his head.

"no i'm sorry. shit we did it again." he spits out as i grab his shirt from the side and give it to him. i took one last look before he put it back on over his head.

"i guess i just felt so alone." i tell him and he nods, understanding. i carefully get off of his lap, sitting next to him.

"why can't we stop doing this?" he asks and i look at him, but he's not looking at me. "we love who we are dating. what the hell are we thinking?"

"i don't know." i admit. "but..i don't really want to stop." as i say those words i gulp, realizing that i don't want it to stop.

"me either, for some reason." he admits back and i shrug.

"we can't do this to our boyfriends though. it's not fair and anthony is my best friend. i'm a terrible best friend." i say and run my fingers through my hair. raegan stays silent and i put my head down.

"i think we should try to stay away from each other for a little while." he says and and i feel like a tiny piece of my heart just broke. but i know he's right.

"i agree. we need to focus on who we love the most." i don't move my head, i just move my eyes to look up at him. he nods at me. then it's silent for a moment.

"well i'll get going." i say and stand up off the couch, leading my way to the door.

"justin?" i hear and stop short, turning around slowly to look at him once more.

"we don't have to mention this time to ant or jayden..right?" he asks and i sigh, knowing i'll feel horrible after saying this word.

"no." i respond and turn myself around, making my way out of his door. i walk quickly to my car, getting in it and driving away smoothly.

i'm a terrible best friend. i'm a terrible boyfriend. why do raegan and i do this? i think i really like him. no scratch that i know i do. but i don't know how he feels towards me. shit justin come on. i cant love two people at the same time.

once i get to the house, i get out of my car and open the door. i walk inside and look around. no sign of anthony.

"hi justin." i hear from the kitchen and see anthony's mother smiling at me. i smile back, greeting her.

"hey. how are you?" i ask nicely and she nods.

"i'm good thank you. and you?" she asks me and i take a deep breath.

"i'm okay. do you know where ant is?" i ask her.

"he's been upstairs all day. he won't talk to me. did something happen?" she asks and i nod slowly.

"yeah kind of, but i'm trying to fix it." i kind of lie to her. she can't know what i did.

"okay well why don't you go see him and then get ready for school tomorrow." i nod and make my way upstairs, slowly walking to anthony's room.

i knock once and hear him ask "who is it?"

"i-it's justin." i say and a few seconds later, his door opens and reveals a wet faced anthony. he's been crying.

"what?" he asks harshly, crossing his arms at me. i scratch my arm and speak.

"are you okay?" i ask gently.

"of course justin. i'm fine. not like my best friend and boyfriend kissed or anything." he says and i look down, wiping my face.

"i am so sorry-"

"i know you are, but that's not good enough right now." and with that, he slows his door in my face.

my apologizes are coming from the heart, yet i still go and kiss his damn boyfriend. what is wrong with me? i don't know what to do, i like raegan a lot. but i can't, we can't be together. it just wouldn't work.

teaaa sis 🍵😭
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