Promises🤞🏻 [Jaegan]

|Chapter 26|

JUSTINS POV:

i start to explain how ant wanted me to tell him everything that happened. i told him that i had to repeat that we kissed twice but he knew about those. he even saw one kiss. then i tell him that i told anthony about that one night we had together.

"that sent him to kick me out." i say about that one night.

"did he yell?" rae asks me.

"he raised his voice a bit asking if i was serious. and then he said i wasn't being his best friend he's known his whole life." i feel my face start to get wet but i don't move. i just let the tears flow. i screwed up so bad. and what makes it even worse is that i'm here.

"you're the same justin we've always known." he says grabbing my cheeks gently which forces me to look at him. "he just doesn't want to admit that. people get unintended feelings for each other, jay." he explains to me and wipes all of my face. i shrug lightly even though i know he's right.

"i'm just such an idiot for letting it come to this. this is worst place i could have gone also." i say and he knows i'm right, but there is some hurt in his eyes.

"it'll all be okay soon." he says and i back my face away, his hands slipping from my face. i shake my head.

"no, no it's not." i say and stand up. i feel like i need fresh air all of a sudden. i needed to get up.

"yes justin, i promise."

"no!" i yell and turn to face him. he's standing up now also. "no more promises. no one ever keeps their damn promises!"

"what?" he asks, confused.

"jayden promised me he'd always love me. i know he doesn't. ant promised me he'd always be my best friend. i don't feel like that's true right now. everyone except-"

"me." he cuts me off. "i told you i'd be there for you always. i never broke it." he points out and i nod.

"you're right, but you're raegan. you're always there for everybody." i say. he can be cruel sometimes but he's usually nice and caring

"but i promised you that i'd always be there for you because i do promise. i don't promise everyone that." he says to me. we just look at each other and i feel like i'm going to break down. i want to be back home. with anthony.

"i can't, rae." i say to him and feel like i'm shaking. "anthony is everything to me and i have no where else to go if he never wanted me back. he's always been there for me and this is how i repay him. falling in love with his damn boyfriend!" i ramble and the last sentence causes me to slap my hand over my mouth. wow i've been saying all the wrong things all day.

"w-what did you say?" he asks, coming a little closer to me. i remove my hand from my mouth. it's true, i am. all this lying is making me exhausted.

"i said i'm falling in love with you! jesus what is happening? i-i've been rambling all day and it's making me go crazy. i don't want to love you. i want all of this to go away. anthony is going to hate me." i cry and slowly fall to the floor. my whole body is breaking down. i can't be alone. i cant handle that.

"woah hey." he grabs me, putting one arm around my back. i reach the floor and rae sits right beside me. he keeps his arm around my back and grabs my hand lightly. i cry into his shoulder. we sit here, still holding my hand.

"i-i'm sorry. i'm so scared." i apologize to him and he rubs his thumb over my hand gently.

"don't be sorry. please relax justin. i'm always here for you." he says.

"i know rae. i just feel like i have no one except you. i'm too stupid for everyone else to handle." i explain to him, feeling selfish.

"you're no stupid." he says immediately. "i'll stay away from you if you don't want me to ruin things with you and anthony." he says and i slowly stopped crying by now. i turn my head to its facing our hands in front of us. i keep my head on his shoulder and stare at our hands. we both play with each other fingers lightly.

"i don't want you to stay away from me." i say quietly. he unhooks our hands and his hands move to my thigh. 

"thank god. i didn't want me to either." he says and i told my head up to look at him. he gives me a small smile. i shouldn't kiss him. i really shouldn't kiss him.

but that "shouldn't" turned into a "i'm going to" because i do. i put both of my hands on the back of his neck and connect our lips in a passionate kiss. he kisses back, maneuvering me onto his lap. we are sitting on the ground, practically making out now. just what i wanted this to turn into. more to tell anthony.

"we shouldn't be doing this." i mumble, pulling away a bit.

"i know. but i'm falling in love with you too." he says and my eyes widen at him. there's no way. oh my god.

i get up off his lap and help him up off the ground. i guide him to sit on his bed and i jump onto his lap this time. i reconnect my lips with his. i can't help it right now. he's all i want. especially after what he just told me.

he backs up against his headboard and stretches his legs out as we go back into the same position. i grab his face as we kiss, not wanting this feeling to go away. it's around 8 o'clock at this point and i never want to leave this moment.

a little more of this will be happening in the next chapter. you'll see hahah
hope you enjoyed!