Promises🤞🏻 [Jaegan]

|Chapter 27|

JUSTINS POV:

when raegan and i kiss, i feel like we are the only two people in the world and all of our problems disappear.

he unlinks our lips and goes for my neck. i tilt my head back so he has more access. he kisses all over my neck as my mouth hangs wide open. he sucks harshly and i moan his name slightly.

he kisses up my jaw back up my lips and our tongues reconnect. my hands go under his shirt and roam his whole stomach area. his abs catch me off guard slightly. holy shit.

without thinking, i move my hand down and try to unbutton his tight jeans. he slowly pulls away and looks at me.

"woah jay." is all he says for me to know i fucked up. again. why would i wanna do anything with him at this time.

"oh my god i'm sorry. i wasn't thinking." i ramble quickly and he gives me a little smile. he puts his palm on my jaw.

"it's okay. that's just really not a good idea right now." he says and i nod, understanding what he's saying.

"yeah of course." i say, climbing off of his lap and sitting next to him on his bed. he sits up and looks at me. it's silent, and i'm looking down but i can feel his eyes on me.

"you know anthony will forgive you no matter what happens. your his best friend." he says i look up. the thing where our eyes meet so easily happens. i shrug lightly.

"but i screwed up bad. and i just did again." i cover my face with my hands and rub my eyes. "i-i can't be with you-"

"hey." he grabs my wrist and i look up at him. he's staring right at me. "you apologized many times. and not for nothing, but anthony can't control who you have feelings for."

"but if it weren't for me, you two would still be together and he'd be happy. he's heart broken right now. i told him you didn't want him anymore." i say, slowly getting quieter as that last sentence comes.

"really?" he asks a little shocked. i nod.

"it just came out, i didn't mean to say it but i thought about my feelings for you and..shit this sounds so selfish but i wanted him to know you wanted me." i literally cringe at what just came out of my mouth. i do not deserve anything at all.

"i really do." is all he says. "i mean look at you." he smiles a little and i can't help but smile back.

"we really should stay away from each other. i can't be with you when you're anthony's ex. and i'm the reason you guys aren't together." i explain and i notice he's just staring at my lips. just full on staring. "what are you doing?"

"just looking at your lips when you talk makes me want to kiss you so bad." he says and my heart starts beating fast. i know we've kissed but him say that makes me nervous to kiss him. "we can't stay away from each other."

"i know." is all i say. "but maybe if i say it it'll seem like i'm not such a horrible friend." i say and that's really what it seems like.

"it's not your fault." he puts his hand on my leg and electricity shoots through my body. his face keeps getting closer and closer to mine.

"yes it is." i breathe and he shakes his head lightly.

"it's mine." he says. "i cheated on my boyfriend with his best friend." i stare at his lips when he talks now. why does he have to be ant's boyfriend? or ex boyfriend? i want him. so bad.

his lips move so smoothly, and they are such a pretty pink color. how can someone be so perfect. i've never felt this way before.

i grab his face and press my lips against his. feeling this makes all my worries go away. but only for a small amount of time.

"text him." he says quietly. what?

"what?" i say aloud to him, confused.

"you're a wreck justin. text him and tell him you want to talk." he tells me.

"we've already talked. i don't know what else to say. i'm stuck." i say and he shrugs his shoulders.

"maybe tell him how you feel?" he asks quietly and i raise an eyebrow at him.

"how i feel? about you?" i ask just clarifying.

"i mean yeah." he nods. "he'll have to get over it."

"i want you..so so bad. but-" i grab his hand and play with his fingers, looking down. "i could never-"

"i know, i know. you could never do that to anthony. well sorry to break it to you jay, but you already kinda did." he says which makes my eyes widen a bit in shock. he's right. but it could get worse. it easily could.

"i-i.." i don't know what to say. i look up and he's not looking at me. he's looking down at our hands also.

"stop lying to him. shit happens. feelings get caught." he says truthfully and i take a deep breathe.

"fine." i say and he now looks up at me.

"fine what?" he asks.

"you're right. i'm going to tell anthony. no more lying." i finally say. i need to stop hiding my feelings. i can't do this.

"i'll go with you." he says and i'm not sure if that's the best idea, but i just nod. "um..now?"

"the sooner the better." i kiss his lips quickly and his face turns a light shade of pink.

"gets better every time." he says and now i know my face is the same pink color.

"i'm not ready." i say. i can already feel my hands sweating.

"you'll never be ready." he tells me and we walk downstairs, getting into his car and he starts driving. what am i doing? what am i thinking? too late now..

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