Our Little Secret ✔️

20

Michelle
My mom and brother came to visit me a couple hours later. My brother didn't even cared that I was in a hospital with a cast, he was more excited about meeting Iron Man, but I don't blame him I would too. Being in this hospital room made me forget about that fact that I was actually inside the Avengers Tower.
"Honey I'm so glad your okay. When Tony Stark called me telling me what happened to you, I couldn't help but think you were dea—" she began but stopped herself and looking away from me with tears in her eyes.
"Mom please don't cry, my accident wasn't even that serious" I said trying to comfort her.
"YOU DONT GET IT MICHELLE! I COULD HAVE LOST YOU LIKE I LOST YOUR FATHER!" He yelled angrily making me jump slightly.
"You don't get to do that to me Michelle Jones, you don't get to leave me like your father did!" She said while tears ran down her face.
My mom is crying. She is crying for the first time in front of me. I've never seen her cry not even after my father died. I would hear her sobbing in her room every single night after my dad died, but she never once cried in front of me. I knew she wanted to be strong for us, so after my dad's funeral I promised myself not to cry ever again. I wanted to be just as strong as my mom was, so I never cried. But seeing my mom here crying to me breaks me into two.
"Mom–" I said looking at her full of remorse.
"No. You listen to me, you are never allowed to leave me, you hear me? I can't afford to loose you, you and your brother are the most important thing in my life" she said.
"I'm sorry" I said looking away from her.
"Look at me Michelle, I've let you push me away for far too long, and I won't anymore. When Tony called, the first thing that came to my mind was that I lost you" she said.
"Mom please don't." I said harshly.
"No. I know your father's death was hard on all of us but specially for you. You saw things that I wished you never did. Your dad died right in front of you—" she began but I interrupted her.
"No dad died BECAUSE of me" I yelled angrily tears running down my face.
"Wh-what?" She asked looking at me pain in her expression.
"Dad died saving me mom. If he wouldn't have pushed me I wouldn't be alive right now. But he would've been here with you and Mike. I hate myself mom. I wake up every morning and I can't look myself in the mirror without feeling guilty about being alive, every second I'm breathing reminds me that my dad isn't" I said tears running down my face.
"Michelle why didn't you ever tell me" My mom said softly.
"Because I didn't want you to hate me for killing dad. I didn't want to loose you too" I said choking in my own tears.
"I could never hate you sweetie, I'm your mother and I love you so much" she said.
"You shouldn't though, I don't deserve it. I kill the love of your life mom, how can you stand there and look at me knowing that it was my fault dad died. TELL ME MOM!" I yelled angrily looking at her.
"I can look at you because it wasn't your fault. Because you are not to blame for your father's death" she said tears running down her face.
"You say that because you didn't watch him die right in front of you." I said harshly.
"I—" Mom said before looking away.
"NO MOM! IT WAS MY FAULT THAT HE DIED!" I yelled
"Even in his last agonizing breaths he whispered that he loved me mom. Do you know what is like holding his bloody hand? Not being able to do anything to ease his pain? Do you know what it's like to look into his eyes and not be able to tell him that he'll be okay? And you know the worst part? The worst part is him comforting me and telling me that I'll be okay. You wanna know what it was like , I'll tell you what he told me. 'Smile for me babygirl. I love your smile so much, I want to see it please. I don't ever want to see tears in your beautiful eyes. Sing for me would ya? I want to hear the angels sing. Babygirl I love you so much, you know that? Since the first time I held you, I'm so proud to call you my daughter. I'm only lucky guy'. I tried to smile for him and I sang him his favorite song and he held my hand tightly scared to let go and he smiled at me like I was his world. His eyes were shining bright and he was happy. You know what his last words were. 'I die being your hero that's all I could ever ask for'. I couldn't tell him mom–I couldn't tell him that he's always been my hero. It hurts mom, it hurts so much. I want to rip my heart out" I said sobbing hysterically
"Babygirl I—" my mom said while sobbing
"DON'T CALL ME THAT!" I yelled.
"Michelle" My mom said grabbing my face.
"Your father loved you so much. It wasn't  your fault honey. He did what any parent would do for their children." She said
"I want him back mommy, I want him here hugging me and telling me that everything will be okay" I whispered while sobbing on my Mom's shoulder.
"Daddy isn't here anymore, but everything will be okay baby. Mama is gonna take care of you" she said softly.
Some nurses came rushing in with a couple of needles my mom held my tightly while I felt a sharp pain on my left arm. I soon realized I was screaming and struggling to get out the nurses grip. I saw Peter trying to get through the door but being held back by Tony.
"THEY'RE HURTING HER!" Peter yelled anxiously trying to push Tony to the side.
"They gave her a tranquilizer" Tony explained holding onto Peter's arm.
We made eye contact and I knew he was trying to tell me he was sorry he couldn't help me. I smiled softly before my eyes got heavy. As I was closing my eyes I saw my dad standing next to me and smiling.
'Hi babygirl' he said.
"Hi daddy" I said.
And a few seconds later I was in utter isolation.
Home sweet home!

I' m a day late. Sorry for not updating Friday. NEW CHAPTER.
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