CL (Ex-2NE1/Soloist) x Male Reader
Angst
Y/n's POV
This night is cold in the kingdom
I can feel you fade away
From the kitchen to the bathroom sink and
Your steps keep me awake
I laid awake on the couch of our shared apartment. CL hates to sleep in the same bed with me anymore.
I was always cold, silently begging for CL to tell me what I did or how I can fix this. I feel her slipping away, fading into the distance.
Don't cut me down, throw me out, leave me here to waste
I once was a man with dignity and grace
Now I'm slipping through the cracks of your cold embrace
So please, please
CL started to always be mean to me. I feel like a punching bag anymore. She hits me, kicks me and I don't know what I did.
Whenever I wanted to hug her, it felt so unwanted and forced but cold. I know that it was toxic but I loved her.
Could you find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy, I hope you can show me
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly
If CL was to leave me, I don't know what I'd do. I hope that if she were to leave, that she'd leave after explaining why she does this to me.
I've been falling for her for the last five years. I can't stand the heart ache she causes me but I can't leave her. Not in a situation like this.
Let me down, down
Let me down, down
Let me down, let me down
Down, let me down, down
Let me down
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly
I feel CL's mixed feelings for me; hate, love, anger, happiness. I don't care what they are, as along as she loves me, but she doesn't.
Does she? I mean she's abusive and it hurts but I love her.
Cold skin, drag my feet on the tile
As I'm walking down the corridor
And I know we haven't talked in a while
So I'm looking for an open door
It's been almost a week since we've had a proper conversation. The last one ended badly, I ended up needing stitches in my right arm and I got a bruise on my left cheek.
When I walked into the kitchen, all I saw was blood stains from my injuries. I walked down the halls of our apartment, looking at the pictures on the walls on rainy days knowing what our life used to be like.
Don't cut me down, throw me out, leave me here to waste
I once was a man with dignity and grace
Now I'm slipping through the cracks of your cold embrace
So please, please
I hope that she won't completely abandon me or kick me out. I have no family or friends to help me. They all left me at one point except for my sister, Yuri but she was always promoting with her group when I needed her.
I just wish I could hug Chaelin and not feel lonely and cold.
Could you find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy, I hope you can show me
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly
I heard footsteps coming down the stairs of the apartment. I pretended to be asleep under a blanket that barely covered my body.
I peeked through my eyelids seeing CL carrying a suitcase. My heart started aching as I watched her go back up then bring another suitcase down.
Let me down, down
Let me down, down
Let me down, let me down
Down, let me down, down
Let me down
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly
My breathing got heavier as she walked to me. CL kneeled down, stroking my cheek gently. I heard her sob quietly.
"I'm so sorry Y/n. I can't stay and do this to you anymore," CL then left a kiss on my cheek.
And I can't stop myself from falling down
And I can't stop myself from falling down
And I can't stop myself from falling down
And I can't stop myself from falling down
I opened my eyes, looking into her chocolate brown ones. CL gasped then pulled away from me. I grabbed her hand, holding it tight.
I sat up then pulled her into a hug.
Could you find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy, I hope you can show me
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly
"Don't leave me, please Chaelin. I need you," I whispered.
She hugged me back, just as tight. Her tears were soaking my shirt as I heard her sniffle.
Let me down, down
Let me down, down
Let me down, let me down
Down, let me down, down
Let me down
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby let me down slowly
"I can't stay Y/n. I'm only hurting you," CL whimpered. "Look at what I've done to you; I've hit you, kicked you, threw glass at you. How can you not hate me?"
I looked into her eyes.
"Because I love you Chaelin. We can work this out. Please stay, for me, for us," I begged.
She looked around the room, avoiding my watering eyes.
If you wanna go then I'll be so lonely
If you're leaving baby, let me down slowly
"I can't," CL pulled away from me.
She went to the door then walked out with her luggage. I put my head into my hands, letting my tears fall.
"Appa?" I looked up at the stairs seeing our three year old son, Kyungsoo.
"Yes baby boy," he came running to me.
I picked him up then sat him in my lap.
"Where's mommy?" Kyungsoo looked at me with his shimmering eyes.
"Mommy left. She'll be back in a while," I lied.
I didn't know when CL would be back.
"How long's a while daddy?" Kyungsoo said grabbing my cheeks.
He looked so much like CL.
"I don't know bud," I hugged him close to me as my tears started to fall. "I don't know."
🔹Kenni🔹
