tears turned to ink

june 17, 2019

**10:03 pm

i am not a priority anymore, i am just there for convenience. i'm always here waiting for your comfort but you only come when it's convenient for you. i give my all to what we have and sacrifice plans and memories to be with you. i seek your approval and long for your attention but you only want that from people who don't matter. you claim to love me more than any other being in this timeline but that is proving to be false. it's just one big test and i'm always a wrong answer. i'm an inconvenience to your life and i should leave while you don't care. years down the drain, heart filled with pain. it's exactly how it was before you placed yourself on the top of my list of people to prioritize. you have slowly moved me down on your list but you stay at #1 on mine. our feelings aren't mutual anymore. i feel like i've been blocked, unfollowed, and forgotten, but from your brain rather than your phone. i feel like an unwanted app that you pressed "delete" on before giving it the time of day. i'm a piece of the past for you, have fun in your future where i am just a memory :(