Shadows | Clalec

Chapter 43

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"What are you doing here?" Alec asked me. My eyes were still focused on Jonathan. I could feel my hands shaken. I just didn't know if it was out of anger, frustration or fear. I slowly moved away from Jonathan and looked towards the direction where Alec was standing.

"I... I don't know." I lied and Alec again shot me a glare. He knew I was lying but I didn't want to admit in front of Jonathan what was going on. If he knew that I was afraid of him, he would use that against me.

"Clary, come on..." Alec sighed out and I could sense that he was getting frustrated with me. I didn't blame him. Although I just wish that he tried to understand how this whole situation would feel for me.

"Let's go." I said and looked at him. I hoped that he would walk with me without resisting it or being his stubborn self. Luckily, Alec did listen and walked with me towards the elevator. When we were standing in the elevator, I looked at Jonathan before the doors closed. The look in his eyes just made me feel like he was seeing right through me.

"Clary?" Alec asked which made me jump out of my thoughts. I looked at Alec who looked concerned. He held my hand and squeezed it softly. The kind gesture made me feel a bit more relaxed.

"What is going on?" He asked and without saying anything else I hugged Alec as tight as I could. I felt the fear inside of me disappearing and changing into comfort. I sighed and closed my eyes as I laid my head on Alec's shoulder. He didn't say anything and put his huge arms around me. It was like a shield, making me feel protected from anyone that wanted to do me harm.

The doors of the elevator opened and I saw some shadowhunters looking at us. I got out of the hug and walked out of the elevator as fast as I could. I felt myself becoming scared again and I closed my eyes. The fear I felt because of Jonathan started to frustrate me and anger me.

"Hey, Clary." I heard Simon say and with his vampire speed, he was next to me in a second which frightened me. I screamed as loud as I could and put my hands up. I felt the wind blowing my hair as the power released from my hands causing Simon to fly hard against the other side of the hall.

I was breathing even faster than usual and I heard Simon grunting. Every other Shadowhunter that was present was in shock staring at me. They had no idea how I just had done that. I felt that my hand started to shake and I closed my eyes. I had to relax before I hurt anyone else. This was all because of Jonathan. He wants this. I know it.

"Clary!" Alec shouted in panic. His voice was full of fear and I turned myself around. Alec's eyes were widened when he saw Simon laying down on the floor. He certainly did not expect that and I could sense that he enjoyed that Simon got hurt. I always knew that he was jealous of my friendship with Simon. He walked towards me as quickly as he could and held me by my arm. I looked at him.

"What happened?" He asked, being fully aware that I had lost control of my powers again in front of everyone. I could sense that he was amused about this whole situation with Simon and it was childish. Leave alone childish, it was more selfish than childish. I yanked my arm from his grip and shot him an angry glare.

"Simon!" I shouted and ran towards him. Simon quickly stood up and looked at me in fear. It broke my heart, seeing that my best friend was afraid of me. The guy that was there for me, in the beginning, was now scared of me. It made me feel like I was some sort of abomination.