Shadows | Clalec

Chapter 16

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ALEC'S POV

I wake up because of the sunlight shining throughout the curtains and sit upright. My thoughts reminded me of yesterday what happened between me and Clary. I would never raise my hand at a women. I would never hurt her but she made me so angry.

I sighed. She never did something wrong but the feeling I was feeling inside made me so furious because I didn't wanted to feel it. I knew I cared for Clary but I didn't want to. I never wanted to care for her. Not in the way that I was. I was caring for her more than a friend.

In our work line we couldn't be possibly in relationships. It was a distraction to our work line and dangerous for the mundanes. It could bring us all in danger.

I always said harsh things to her which I never meant. I was curious if she had a good sleep as she always has nightmares. I didn't hear her last night so I guess she was okay. I hope she was.

I got out of bed and someone stormed inside my room and I sighed annoyed. I looked up and faced Jace. His expression on his face was worried, scared and furious. He ran towards me and I looked at him in confusion. What was going on?

"Have you seen Clary?" He asked me and I shook my head. He kicked frustrated my bed and clenched his jaw and fist.

"When was the last time you saw her?" He asked me and I shrugged. I was getting curious where this conversation was going because if he was going to accuse me again that I was doing something with his sister, I swear I would lash out on him. I had already enough of the Fairchilds.

"She is gone. No one knows where she is." Jace said afraid and I saw the tears burning in his eyes. I frowned at him and confusion was all over my face. What does he mean that Clary was gone?

I started to feel anxious and worried. Where could she go? I mean she had no one expect Simon and Simon was with the vampires.

"I am going to take a look at the cameras. Maybe someone took her." He said and rushed out of my room. I looked around me frustrated and ran after him. Where was she?

The feelings I had for Clary were so confusing to me. I never felt this way and I was and still am denying it because I just don't want it and I never will want it, just because it was a distraction. Clary would be a distraction to me.

I saw Jace talking to my mother and he was taking a look at the cameras. I walked towards him and stood next to him, while watching the videos.

I saw Clary walking out of the institute and she was gone. She walked away herself. I was so confused why would she go away after everything she had here?

"She walked out of the institute herself?" Jace asked and I could she the confusion all over his face and he was not the only one.

How irresponsible could Clary be? She knows she would be in danger. Agramon was after her and she walked away like she didn't care. She was our weapon against him. I was still confused and I was thinking the whole time why she would go and then the realization hit me in the face like the slap Clary gave me on the mission.

Clary left because of me.

I told her so many times that she didn't belong here and that she brought all of us in danger but that was before I realised that she was facing my uncle. I felt responsible for saving her and that was one of the reasons I never wanted her to go on a mission with us. She could get hurt and I would never forgive myself.