Hey! I am sorry for not being able to write for Shadows. I wasn't feeling to well so I couldn't really look at my phone screen or laptop screen. I am feeling a bit better now!
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ALEC'S POV
I opened my mouth slightly, wanting to say something to Clary but I figured out that I shouldn't. I caused her to be this way and this was my fault at the end of the day. If I didn't do what I did, she wouldn't have this rage inside of her.
Clary disappeared angrily and I looked over at my little sister. She gave me a glance but didn't really say something. It was frustrating.
"What?" I asked frustrated as I looked at her. Izzy shrugged her shoulders and didn't say anything to me.
"I know this is my fault and I know I deserve this." I said as I looked at her. It was breaking me in and out. The guilt was eating me up but I couldn't do something that could convince her that I do love her.
I broke that part of her trust and I know that it is my fault. Izzy looked at me and shook her head. She sighed softly.
"It isn't your fault that she is like this..." She said softly as she looked at me. I looked away from her as I shook my head.
"Cut trying to make me feel better. I know that it is my fault." I said as I looked back at her. I was going to be the end of her.
"Alec... Hey..." Izzy said softly as she held my hand. She shook her head as she looked at me.
"I don't agree with how your intentions were at first but I know that you love her. I know that you do. None of this is your fault." Izzy said, hoping that she would make me feel better.
I sighed as I looked at her.
"I don't know how to fix it." I said as I looked hopelessly at my little sister. How ironic was it to ask my little sister about relationship advice?
"You can't." She said as she looked at me. Confused, I looked at her not understanding what she really meant with it. Clary was my first relationship and she was going to be my last one too.
"What?" I scoffed and Izzy chuckled softly.
"In other words, you need to let her go for a while. If you try fixing something that isn't broken. It will get worse." Izzy said and I frowned.
"Not broken?" I asked confused.
"I still have hope that both of you will find a way to get together again." Izzy said with a smile and I laughed softly.
"That makes one of us." I said without any hope in my voice. Izzy titled her head slightly and gave me a glance.
"I mean it. I know that it doesn't seem like it but both of you loved each other deeply." My little sister said and I nodded with a smile.
Liz laughed as she looked at us. I looked her way and honestly couldn't believe what had happened to her or what made her choose this way. Somehow, I felt sorry for her. I knew that Agramon would never love. He never cared for anyone else than himself.
"You guys are pathetic." She said and I rolled my eyes.
"Do you not have anything better to say, Liz?" I asked angrily. Izzy held my arm, pushing me back slightly but I shook my head towards my little sister.
"Alec, just leave it." I heard Izzy say behind me but I shook my head again. I looked at Liz who was slightly smiling.
"Clary is right. She is right to what she said to you. Agramon will never care about you than himself. You had a family here. You had us." I said as I looked at her. Liz scoffed.
"Had you guys? Everyone just looked at me like the daughter of a great evil and when Clary came along, she had the same exact situation as me but somehow, I was still the centre of drama and rumours." She said throughout her teeth.
I could see the pain in her eyes and anger. I never knew what she was going through.
"Everyone judged my loyalty. Even when my loyalty laid with the clave. Everyone always judged me but sweetheart Clary was trusted as soon as she came into our little world." Liz said with anger.
"I am sorry... I never knew..." I said softly as I looked at her. There was no remorse or sadness on her face to see. She looked emotionless.
"Because you never paid attention. You never cared enough to make sure that I was okay." She said and I sighed. I could hear Izzy sighing too and I knew she was feeling guilty too.
"You can still change this. Tell us where Agramon is... We can help you." I tried convincing her and she clicked her tongue as she shook her head.
"I rather die, Alec." She said and I sighed.
"I give up." I said as I looked at Izzy. I walked away from the cell and I could hear Liz chuckle softly. This is exactly what she wants from us.
When I was finally in the hallway to my room, I saw Clary walking inside her room together with Simon. Jealousy hit me and I knew that I had lost her. I watched her disappear behind her door and I walked inside my own room.
I stood in my room and sighed. I could feel the tears burning in my eyes. I looked at the vase that was resting on my closet. I screamed and knocked it off from there. I could hear the glass shattering on the ground.
I sobbed as I reached my hands to my hair. I fucked everything up... I fucked up Liz's life and Clary's. There was no need of me...
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Shadows | Clalec
Fanfiction[COMPLETED] "Emotions are nothing but a distraction, Clary." He said and I looked at him and knew that his heart and soul was filled with ice-cold nothing... Clary had been a normal girl her entire life and lived as a mundane. She always had loved...
