Shadows | Clalec

Chapter 77

HAI! I am so sorry that I didn't upload last week. I was a bit busy and didn't really get the time to write for all over my stories... Sorry! I hope you guys will enjoy this chapter though! Please make sure to leave a comment down below!
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Angrily, I sighed. I knew that even I had handled this with rage and violence, it wouldn't have made a difference to Liz. She thought that she had everything figured out. Jonathan did not care for her neither did her father or mine. She was just someone they made use of to get to me. They wanted me.

"What are you going to do?" Alec asked as I started to walk away. I turned myself to him so I could look at him. There was no way that I wanted him to get involved right now... Jonathan wanted him dead and whenever he wants something, it usually happens too.

All of this was to get Alec killed and if he had died because of me, I would have never forgiven myself ever. The thought of losing him was as painful as a seraph blade going right through me. I couldn't or would imagine a life without him.

It was either with him or it wasn't at all.

"I am going to find Jonathan." I said. He couldn't be to far gone or I could at least find something that could lead me towards him. I just knew I could do something. Alec quickly shook his head.

"We are going home. There is no way that I will let you go off alone." He said. I knew that he couldn't go with me. He was too hurt and so like that he needed to go back to the institute to get treated. It was a perfect opportunity for me to just go alone... without anyone getting hurt.

"I will be fine, Alec." I said softly. I saw him getting up with difficulty without wanting the support of his little sister. When Izzy did try to hold him by his arm, he shot her an deadly glare. He walked up to me and shook his head.

"I said I won't let you go." He said throughout his teeth. He was angry and I knew why. I probably would have been too... but I couldn't do this to him. I couldn't get him hurt because of me. I loved him too much for that.

"Alec..." I said softly and he shook his head.

"It is dangerous, Clary. What if something happens to you?" He asked and I shook my head.

"Something me and Jonathan both can agree on is that he will never kill me. I am too valuable to them. He would never do something to physically hurt me." I said and he exhaled sharply. He held onto my hand and looked at me desperately, in hope that I would change my mind.

"I love you." He said and with tears in my eyes I nodded to him.

"I love you too." I replied. He pulled me into a hug, holding tightly onto me. I closed my eyes as I held him tightly by his shoulders.

"Be careful... Please." He said and I nodded. Magnus made a portal and I saw Alec disappearing together with Izzy and the dead body. I sighed out deeply when they were gone. I turned myself around to Magnus.

"If you want to go-" "I will never leave you alone with that maniac on the loose." He answered, not letting me finish off my sentence. I smiled weakly at him and I started walking ahead of him. I could hear Magnus footsteps following me and again I deeply inhaled.

"Alec will never let you go. You do know that right?" Magnus asked as he was walking besides me. I looked at him a bit confused, not knowing about what he was talking about.

"What?" I asked confused. Magnus looked at me as if he could look right through my soul by just one look.

"You are planning to leave the Shadow world." He said and I sighed again, looking away from him. How was he always the one figuring out what I was going to do or how I felt?

"It is the best for everyone." I replied. Since, I have came. So much has happened... Simon was turned into a vampire against his will, my mother was killed... Jace was kidnapped twice and Alec was almost killed today.

What was the point of me staying here if everyone I loved was put in danger because of me? There was no reason at all... I could handle it myself... without anyone getting hurt.

"Is it?" He asked and I sighed. I knew that it was going to hurt Alec and Jace the most but knowing that they are alive meant more to me than their pain of losing me... I would be relieved knowing they are safe. That's what mattered to me. I nodded my head to Magnus's question.

"If it means that they are alive. Yes it is." I answered and Magnus exhaled deeply.

"I know that my opinion might not change to what you want to do but you will hurt the more than you think you will. Alec won't be able to live without you." He said and I scoffed. I turned myself to Magnus and stopped walking.

"He just knows me for a few months! He needs to get over himself." I said annoyed and I suddenly felt the urge to cry as if I was going to say goodbye today. Magnus stopped walking and just looked at me.

"I am not that special okay? He will get over me." I said and I started to sob. Magnus reached his hand out to my shoulder but I moved away.

"Don't." I said. "Don't act like I need anyone's comfort. I am doing this to protect everyone..." I said softly and Magnus nodded his head as he moved his hand away.

"A shadowhunter loves once... and when they do... they love fiercely... Neither you nor Alec will be able to forget one another." He said and I looked at him with my glossy eyes. Whatever it was... I knew what I had to do.