Shadows | Clalec

Chapter 61

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ALEC'S POV

"So it is set. Alexander Gideon Lightwood. You are the head of the New York Institute." The inquisitor and I smiled.

I saw how my mother and smiled. She was proud. My father however just looked like it was nothing. There was no sense of pride.

I couldn't wait to tell Clary this. I couldn't wait to tell her everything and I meant everything. She deserved to know what my intentions were in the beginning. I know I was going to hurt her but I just hoped that my honesty would be enough for her.

I don't know what to do if I would lose her...

"Thank you." I said and they left. It was nice to be back in Idris and I knew where I should have the next date with Clary.

It should be here. Right at home. Where both of us belonged.

"Alec." My mother said proudly and she looked at me proudly.

"I am so proud of you." She said with a smile and moved my hair a bit back. I smiled and I felt like I was a small child.

"Mum, please." I said and moved my head away.

"I am going to tell Clary." I said and I saw how she was looking at me. She was surprised and angry.

"Are you out of your mind?" She asked and I saw my father walking away from the conversation. I rolled my eyes and shook my head.

"No, and that's the reason why I will tell her. She deserves to know. I won't lie to her anymore." I said and my mother clenched her jaw.

"You will ruin your bond with her and what value would you have then in the eyes of the clave?" She asked angrily.

"Don't mess it up." She said and I sighed.

"Mother, I will rather be just a shadowhunter and not lie to Clary than being unfaithful to her and become something out of no power." I said and I walked off.

"Alexander!" My mother shouted and I heard her heels caving in on the floor. She was following me. Somehow, I could feel her anger through the way she was stepping.

I saw that a portal was open and took my chance immediately to go to the institute. I couldn't listen to another word from my mother.

I knew that she would try talking me out of it and I didn't want to. I wanted to do what was right and what I did or was doing to Clary was unfair...

I should have never become her parabatai if I wasn't going to uphold it. I broke the main rule of the parabatai bond already...

I didn't like Clary in the beginning and that was because I didn't like change but somehow when she came into my world so much had changed.

I was changed and she did that to me. She changed me into a better person. I had to thank her for saving me, over and over again from myself.

I still wish that I never listened to my mother because now I fear what will happen next. My honesty could either destroy our bond or maybe somehow make it stronger.

I know that Clary is going to be hurt and I know for sure that she was going to be mad at me but who could blame her.

If she would have done this to me, I would have been done with her.

No positive thoughts. I sighed and walked through the portal in a second I was already in the institute. I saw Izzy talking with someone and when she saw me I could see in her eyes how unhappy she was to see me.