colby brock imagines :)

YOU'VE BEEN ASSAULTED

DISCLAIMER- i just wanted to say that this is in no way supporting assault or trying to offend someone who has been assaulted. trigger warning, it gets very detailed.

YOUR POV

colby was on top of you, kissing you passionately yet softly. you kissed back and got butterflies as he intertwined your fingers and squeezed your hand. he started to kiss down to your jawline, and you smiled slightly.

once colby got to your neck, it brought you right back to that place. that.. disgusting place and your smile immediately fell. all of the memories came flooding back as you forcefully shoved colby off of you.

"get off of me!" you screamed as you got up and ran into the bathroom, locking the door and sliding down it. you heard footsteps outside the door and then some knocks.

"baby i'm sorry... i-if i did something to make you feel uncomfortable or violated... i-i-i'm so sorry.." you heard the sobs in his voice as he slid down the door on the other side.

you started to cry really hard as the memories flooded your brain. you touched your neck, then your chest and arms, going down to your stomach. you chocked hard on a sob and you heard colby softly sobbing as well.

"c-colby you didn't do anything...i-i just.." you paused, wondering if after you tell him this he won't love you anymore. he sniffed, "you what y/n?" he asked softly.

you slowly got back up and opened the door. you saw as he got up and looked at you with red eyes. you slowly looked up at him, and what he saw broke his heart.

"you might want to sit down for this.." you said barely above a whisper. he nodded and sat down on the bed, as you sat down a little distance from him.

"i need you to promise me something," you said and he leaned a little closer, holding his hands together as he nodded, "anything.."

"i need you to promise me you are going to listen. i need you to promise me, that you won't tell anyone. this is my story and it needs to be told by me," you paused and looked at him and he nodded again as he understood, "you need to promise me that once i tell you this.. you won't think any different of me. but most importantly, i need you to promise me that once you know my story, you'll still love me as much as you do now."

colby looked up with furrowed eyebrows, wanting to ask a question. he retorted from doing so and just nodded, ready to listen in to what you had to say.

(play the song please!!)

"two and a half years ago.. i was sexually assaulted." you started with that and colby just looked up at you with hurt in his eyes as he was shocked to hear that his baby was hurt. "i went to this party with a couple friends, and i had a crush on this guy that i didn't really know that well." you sighed, trying to put your words together and stay strong at the same time.

"he wasn't at the party. which confused me because he told me he was a party animal, but i ignored that. i decided to text him and ask where he was, and to come to the party. he responded telling me that he was hanging out with a couple friends and that i should come over once they're gone. which would've been around 25 minutes later." colby was looking down, and nodding his head as he listened closely.

"i went over, not thinking anything of it. when he opened the door, he appeared to be more sober than drunk. he would talk without slurring and he was walking perfectly fine. so i came in and sat on the couch as he picked a movie. of course, he picked fifty shades of grey." colby made a disgusted noise, but still listened.

"again, i didn't think anything of it. i thought it was flattering at the time and i thought that when it got a heated scene we'd make-out or some dumb shit like that." you sighed disappointedly as you continued, "but. he had something else in mind."

"he was drinking a lot more as the movie continued, until i finally got him to stop by telling him he'd have a super bad hangover in the morning. about halfway through the movie, a really dirty and kinky scene came on." colby tensed, not ready to hear this part.

"i was just watching like it was nothing. until, i felt a subtle hand grip my thigh. it shocked me at first, and i just looked over at him to see him smirking at me in a really devilish way." you paused again, feeling the brink of tears returning.

"i tried to push him off but... he was too strong. he got on top of me, pushing me down into the couch by my neck while i'm trying to get him off. i'm sitting there yelling stop, and get off of me, and lots of other things at him. but he refused to listen." you saw a tear roll down colby's cheek, but he quickly wiped it.

"he started to kiss me, very roughly. roughly enough to where i could taste the vodka and tequila in his mouth. i was just there, starting to slowly go numb as i'm crying. he went down to my neck, as he ripped off my crop top and started kissing my torso." colby gripped the bedsheets in anger, but tried to stay calm for you.

"once he finished going down my stomach, leaving dark hickeys everywhere, he ripped off my bra. he started to massage and suck on each one of them, as i just laid there bawling my eyes out. he continued that for a few minutes or more, i couldn't tell, until he ripped off my skirt and panties at the same time."

"he didn't even take off his shirt. only his jeans and boxers as he slid into me. feeling how he stretched my virgin walls made me feel disgusting, and it hurt. extremely bad. he just went at his own pace, which was fast. it hurt more than words can describe, and he rode out his high." colby just shook his head at the description of what happened.

"soon enough he was eating me out. at this point i was completely numb. i couldn't feel anything. no emotions. no nothing. eventually he passed out on the floor, and i laid there. feeling worthless, and like a whore. i slowly grabbed my clothes and put them back on as i walked out and got in my car, driving back to my place feeling nothing. i was just numb." you finished off as colby looked at you.

you looked away. you couldn't look him in the eyes now that he knows what happened to you. he scooted closer, cautiously and gently gripping your hand. you looked down at your hands, squeezing his as tears fell from your cheeks.

"i'm so sorry baby... i will never let anything happen to you. i promise." colby said as he gently kissed your head, gripping your waist and pulling you into him.

you whimpered as you cried. "the way he touched me colby.... i-i just want to forget it. i want to forget it all." you broke down sobbing as colby pulled you onto his lap.

"shhh babygirl... it's alright. i'm here now, and you're safe. nothing bad's gonna happen to you ever again. i'll make sure of it. i love you to death and i want you to know that i will never, ever hurt you. no matter what." you looked up at colby as he kissed you, furrowing his eyebrows.

you kissed back as you wrapped your arms around his neck, wanting to be as close to him as possible. he pulled away, hugging you close to him as you sniffled into his neck.

he slowly ran his fingers through your hair as you got tired from sobbing so much. you soon fell asleep in his arms as he got under the covers, still holding you tight. he laid you both down and held onto you as though if he let go you'd wither away.

he kissed your head and whispered to you, "i will always protect you. even if it means i have to die to do so."