K A Y C E E
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i place your coat on my fragile body, the one you loved to wear. I remember when it was spring and you would refuse to take it off, even when it was 45 degrees out.
"sean, why are you still wearing that coat? it's 45 degrees!" I asked the asian boy, that was clutching his coat.
"because, I love to wear it." he pouted, making me giggle.
"you're gonna be sweating a lot." I stated at him.
"that's okay, as long as I look handsome for my baby." he smiles, bringing me to his side.
"you look gorgeous even when you're in your baggy puma pants and black shirt." I reassure him, pecking his cheek.
"I'm feeling unsatisfied, you have to kiss me right here-" he whines, pointing to his lips.
I peck him on his lips, "better?"
"nope." he laughs.
I go in for another peck to his lips but he deepens it by bringing me in by my waist.
"satisfied?" I mumbled against his lips.
"very."
"okay now take off that coat." I jested.
"no." he sticks out his tongue at me, making me laugh.
slipping on my shoes and stepping out of the house. the cool breeze of winter seeping through your coat and sending shivers down all over my body. the smell of you still lingering, making me feel close to you.
watching as the sun finally overcame the darkness, making the sky a mix of tangerine and tuscan sun with highlights of pink, and specks of purple. the colours perfectly faded into one another making it a perfect view to wake up to. the stars that delicately stayed in the sky made me remember the early mornings when I would wake up next to you. the way our eyes would bore into each other, the way I would get lost in the stars that would glimmer in your eyes. your soft, jet black hair, that would lay on top of your head and get in your eyes, making it a sight for sore eyes.
my bed feels empty without you. the warmth I felt was no longer there, the feeling of being secured when I was fast asleep no longer there. your arms around me secured me, you were the beauty on my pillow that held me in the night. you were the reason why I felt safe, the reason why I fell asleep at night. the sound of your breathing and soft snores soothing me to sleep, your touch made my body feel something I've never felt before. love? possibly?
the day you left me, was the day i crashed. i was on a ship, our ship. our ship that sailed, the day we met we were sailing. we were on our way to forever, but we crashed at the end .
"kaycee, do you love me?" his voice soft and his eyes curious. I saw the way the lights in his eyes dimmed when I hesitated.
I was surprised at the question, "of course I do, sean."
"say it, please." he whispered, the small crack at the end of his sentence not missed.
"I-i-i-" I struggled to let the words out. it wouldn't come out, like it was not in my vocabulary. the three words I tried to let out, the three words I wanted to tell to the man I loved so badly wouldn't form, no matter how hard I strained my voice.
