All That Matters 2

ELEVEN

"Erin Linsday." Kelly said smiling as I motioned for him to come in.

"The one and only." I said hugging him.

"You here alone?"

"Um yeah my kids are at Hanks and Jay is still working late."

"Oh well how-how are you?"

"Good, kinda um I'm pregnant, I have I kid who is almost a teen, and my marriage is messed up."

"Oh I'm sorry Erin I-"

"Hey its fine, doesn't matter now. So how are you?"

"Um I'm good, lonely."

I laughed and then he continued "I think about you all the time, I guess I was never ready to let go, even when I was with Stella."

I stayed silent. I wasnt sure what he wanted me to do, or say.

"I'm sorry but I have to do- this." He said leaning in closer to me.

"Wha-" then it happened. He kissed me. And something in me didn't want to pull away and I didn't. Moments, seconds, passed and I knew something couldn't be right. This was Kelly I was kissing. Not my husband.

Jay.

I pulled away and he stepped back. I sighed heavily and closed my eyes. "Erin, I-"

"You should go." I opened the door not making eye contact with him. And he left staying silent. Jay came home an hour later and I acted normal but I knew everything wasn't. What did I do? This was gonna ruin us.

The next morning I woke up at 7 barely getting 2 hours of sleep. I made scrambled eggs just to get my mind off the fact that last night Kelly Severide told me he wanted me and thought about me day and night. That was Jay's line. Wasn't it? Jay headed in to work early and Hank dropped the girls off so he could go into the district.

"Mom are okay?" That's the question they kept asking me. And I replied with I'm fine and a smile. But that wasn't what I was feeling. I felt empty like I just murdered someone.  Maybe I shouldn't even tell Jay and then everything would be okay.

"Hey mom we forgot to tell you but tommorow night is this parent- dance thing. You and dad have to come and shaperone. Nadia signed you up. That's the bus gotta go love you!" Remy said grabbing her bag and running out the door.

"Okay!"

I guess I had that planned. I texted Jay the news about remy and Nadia's school and he replies with a okay babe sounds good. And I felt so guilty. I was so screwed.

Jay was more important to me than anything and now I did the unfixed.

Please review. Let me know what you think! Thanks for reading and voting! Baby Halstead 3 names please. Tell me: what is your favorite Chicago show and why? And do you think Erin should tell Jay or leave it a secret and have a happy life??
Xoxo-
B.