All That Matters 2

TWELVE

An hour after the last chapter.

"Jay! Will you step on it! This is worse than the girls!!"

It was time the baby was coming. My contractions were bad, worse than my first with Nadia. Remy was the easiest. I had the girls go to Kim and Adam's for the weekend and Hank and Jay were taking me to the hospital. 

"Were almost there. Hold on baby!"

We finally arrived at the ER and one of the nurses rolled me in a wheelchair and then Natalie took us to the room. Natalie had delivered both of my girls and she would deliver our son too. Jay and I had finally decided on a name. Our sons name would be Lucas Saywer Halstead. It was just something I liked. Jay was right by my side then it was time and we immediately started the birth. Hank waited outside for this one. I started to push then I felt like I had no energy, I felt broken and everything started to go black. Then it started to hurt.

I couldn't breathe. Something was wrong. And I couldn't even breathe. I knew they dectected something, they stopped the childbirth and told Jay to get out. I could barely hear. I started slapping the bed in pain wanting them to do something.
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"What is going on is she okay is the baby?"

"Erin isn't breathing, Jay, which means neither is the baby were trying to do everything we can just stay out here."

"Will we need you in here!"

I took a huge breath and felt better. I could breathe again I was okay. But what about the baby?

"Erin I'm sorry-we did every-everything we could. We have to do a stillborn. I'm very sorry. The contractions-"

"They're gone."

I felt nothing. The baby died inside of me. I had to deliver stillborn. I started to sob and Natalie hugged me. Will went out to tell Jay.

"Erin is breathing." Will said as Jay rose from his chair.

"Oh thank God." Jay said smiling.

"But- there were complications, Erin has to deliver stillborn the baby didn't make it."

Jay ran to the closest bathroom. And punched the mirror leaving a dent. He sat on the floor buring his head into his hands and started to cry.

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We delivered the baby, then the nurses took him away to wherever he had to go. Natalie and Will left doing tests and then Jay opened the door. He looked like he had been sweating and sobbing as did I.

"Erin." He said rushing to my side.

I said nothing. But I held him close and put my head to his. Hours passed and all of the team knew. I feel like we would be okay in time. After everything thay had been happening Kelly kissing me. Our marriage. I didn't really need my baby to die.

"You should call the girls and tell them." I said to Jay.

He nodded his head, and walked out calling the girls. Who knew how they would take it.

I really didn't look forward to condolences. And tommorow was the girls school thing. Great.

My life couldn't be a better living hell right now.

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