eight things that keep me up at night:
1) how many times can you fall for the wrong person before you give up on finding the right one?
2) my mother and father are only together because of their children. if love is founded on consideration for others, i want to be selfish. i want to love because i do, not because i have to. does that make me a bad person?
3) the last time we talked, i told you to never call me again. you cried and then you told me i had used you. it hurt me to think that it was only my fault as if you had never been the one to ruin me.
4) my friend is in love with someone who abuses him. he doesn't see it but i do. i know the abuser and they are not a bad person.
5) physical scars heal faster than emotional ones. a cut on my leg is jagged and bloody, a crevice stitched into my skin. imagine if i could examine my heart.
6) what if i never should have left her?
7) i haven't been with anyone since the breakup. i don't know if it's because i don't want to or if it's because i can't. it's hard to tell what you're feeling when you've made yourself numb.
8) it scares me to think about loving again.
