five waves of memories:
ONE
you were with him; sitting under the ocean of stars above, holding hands while sharing thoughts. you just can't help but to smile because in every words he say, it just reminds you of why you fell for him. not because of the flowery words nor metaphors he makes just to make butterflies on your stomach. simply because, he is him. he has his unique style that makes you fall in love in every single move he make.
TWO
you woke up. realising that everything you have only exist in your dreams. that he never loved you the way you thought he did. that he never missed you the way you do every single second. and he will never will. then, you'd ask yourself if you should you be thankful for the day you've woke up from the dream you thought would last forever.
THREE
it still breaks your heart, seeing a photo of him on your room. it still breaks your heart, hearing his name from your friend's mouth. and when they talk about how happy he is right now, you can't help but to ask yourself when will you be able to find your happiness without finding him.
FOUR
you will try. you will try to get rid of the things that remind you of him. you will try to delete his number from your contact, but damn, it's saved in your mind. you will try to delete his photos from your gallery and will burn all of the photos with him, but you knew how his eyes looks like and how his lips was curved, cos you crave for it everyday. you will try to fall out of love, but you knew you couldn't cos no one could fall out of love, all we know is to fall in love and fall apart.
FIVE
you will see him in the middle of the crowd, wearing his smile you once fall into. his eyes, speaking, as if it tells you that he's happy without you. you managed to keep your heart off, for he is now in love with somebody else. but the feelings are still on, and you can't find the way out of it. for how many times you tried to forget, fate pulls you back to where you are lost – in the memories he left.
[ song ; xo tour life - lil uzi vert ]
