Her last letter to Earth

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Venus' POV

I feel like I lost my voice as my knees weaken. I want to shout his name but I can't find the guts to say it. Nakita ko na muntik na siyang mahulog dahil nawalan siya ng balanse. I whisper his name in the air but it couldn't reach him. Then I've realize that this is not a joke anymore. He's not playing this time.

"Earth!" I shout as loud as I can. Nakita ko ang pagkatuod nito. 

"Baba!" Utos ko habang unti unting lumalapit sa kaniya. He turn his body towards me and watched me walked. He shakes his head when there's only a few feet left apart between us. Napahinto ako sa aking kinatatayuan. 

"Let's stop this," naluluha niyang sabi. Nadako naman ang mata ko sa kamay niyang nakakuyom. And there hanged the familiar pendant of the necklace he once buy na kasama ako. It's for my mother but it was rejected. 

I look at him and when our eyes met my heart melted not with sympathy but with love. He is just a boy who fall inlove at the wrong person. 

" I'm tired. Pagod na ako Venus." I shake my head to disregard what he said. 

" bakit hindi ko nakukuha ang mga bagay na gusto ko? Why can't things work out for me?" Panunumbat nito hindi sa akin ngunit tila ang mundo ang sinusumbatan nito. 

A lone tear escape from my eyes. Hindi na akong nag abalang punasan pa iyon. I can feel his pain while listening and watching him from a distance. 

" Bumaba ka na please." Pagmamakaawa ko hoping that he will listen. 

" You don't understand Venus dahil wala ka sa sitwasyon ko. It hurts so bad," pagtuturo niya sa kaniyang dibdib. 

" At ito, itong utak ko gusto na lang isarado lahat." He stutters as he wipe away his cloudy eyes. 

" Don't try to stop me Venus dahil wala ka sa sitwasyon ko," 

Umiling ako. " Oo wala ako sa sitwasyon mo. I don't know the pain you're feeling. Wala akong karapatan na husgahan ka. I don't know the whole story but please, marami pa kaming nagmamahal sa iyo Earth. Hindi matatapos ang sakit pagnagpakamatay ka. The pain will transfer to us. To your family. They will bear the burden for the rest of their lives. At ako Earth,pagsisihan ko kapag hindi kita pipigilan ngayon. We will feel guilty for the rest of our live. The thought that 'we could have saved you'. 'We could have do something to save you' that thought  will haunt us forever so 'wag mo akong pigilang tulungan ka." I pleaded at him

" That's selfish Venus. Let me make my own decision-" I cut him off.

"You're the selfish one Earth! Akala mo hindi rin kami nasasaktan sa mga ginagawa mo. Si Tita Cornel, si Choco si Kuya Pete, si mama, ako, nag aalala kami para sa iyo Earth,"

" Nag aalala lang kayo but no one will understand. No one will even listen!"

"Then let me understand! Naalala mo ba noong sinamahan kita rito sa mismong lugar din na ito? I told you that if the burden was too heavy you can call someone's shoulder to rely on. Talk to me like how you told me your weaknesses before. Let me be that someone Earth. I can be that someone." Nanghihinang sagot ko sa kaniya. 

Napatahimik siya but his tears can't stop from falling from his eyes.

"Akala ko ba kaibigan mo na ako. I even thought that you- you like me becuase you kissed me that night." Mahinang ani ko.