Her last letter to Earth

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Song: That's Us- Anson Seabra 

Venus' POV

Nahigit ko ang aking hininga habang hinhintay kung ano ang kaniyang sasabihin. Natatakot akong malaman kung ano ang reaksyon niya dahil sa sinabi ko kaya agad akong napayuko matapos kong sabihin na nagkakagusto na ako sa kaniya. 

" You can't love a broke man, Venus."  Natood ako sa aking pwesto at agad napaangat ng tingin sa kaniya. He said the exact same words he said before that strikes my chest like a thousand needles.

Uminit ang sulok ng aking mga mata kaya napaiwas akong muli nang tingin sa kaniya. Ilang ulit ba ako pwedeng masaktan. This is my first time falling in love but yet why does it feel so painful. Is this how falling in love really meant? Napatawa ako ng mapakla sa aking isipan. How many time my heart got broken because of Earth but his still capable of breaking it again. I guess I was selfish too just like Earth. I am not contented of what he can give me now. Napalunok ako ng maalala kong sinabi ko pala sa kaniya na my love for him is unconditional. Kinain ko lang pala ang sinabi ko sa kaniya rati. 

"Loving a broken man will only make you broken too," he added. 

" Kung ganun, kahit manatili na lang ako sa tabi mo. Is that alright, if I stay by your side until you feel okay?" I asked. Kahit ito man lang magawa ko. I have to teach my self to be contented and just watch him fix himself because he wouldn't let me in. 

He slowly nodded and it was my cue to stand up. Hindi na dapat ako mag inarte pa. I should accept what he can give me this time. Iwinaksi ko sa aking isipan na nasasaktan ako. Pinasigla ko ang aking boses bago humarap sa kanya. Inabot ko ang aking kamay sa kaniya upang tulungan siyang makatayo. 

" Let's start anew now," Anyaya ko sa kaniya. 

Pinakatitigan lang niya ng matagal ang kamay kong nakaabot sa kaniya at babalik naman ng tingin sa aking mata. Bigla tuloy akong naging conscious dahil sa kaniyang ginawa. May mali ba sa ginagawa ko?

" Could you wait for me?" Tanong nito na nagpabigla sa akin. The small hope I have in my heart suddenly lit to fire. What does he mean?

" I have to find myself first. So can you wait for me until then?" He asked me while looking straight to my eyes. 

Does this mean Earth and me have a bigger chance now? 

Biglang nagdiwang ang aking kaluluwa sa isiping Earth is giving a chance and all I have to do is to wait. Nakita ko ang pagtayo niya na hindi inaabot ang aking kamay. Humarap siya sa akin. Nagulat ako sa biglaan niyang pagsalikop sa aming mga kamay. Tinitigan ko iyon. Why does it feel like they perfectly fit with each other. 

" Please say you will," Tila nagmamakaawang pakiusap niya sa akin. It pierced my heart seeing him begging something what he deserves because I know he is worth waiting for. 

I nodded my head and formed a great smile on my lips. And with all my heart I say the words "I will".

I can wait for you Earth. I am always willing to do it for you. Even if it will takes me years or a lifetime I'd still do it for you. 

And in that night, while the moon is watching us with his stars I saw  how Earth's eyes brighten up with beautiful colors again. It was heartwarming to watch a sad person finds happiness again. And it's even more beautiful of a feeling to know that you are one of the reason behind it.