Her last letter to Earth

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Venus' POV

My head throb in pain and my heart aches so much. Napaatras ako sa kanila. This is so impossible. Then Patty, does that mean Patty is their daughter? Paano ako? Si papa ? 

Inilibot ko ang aking paningin and saw a calendar. Agad ko itong nilapitan. The date say May 2045. Agad kong isinalin sa ibang pahina ang kalendaryo dahil baka namamalikmata lamang ako. But the year is still the same. I shake my head. I don't want to let the information sink in. Mas lalo lamang akong naguguluhan. I ran outside and heard them call me but I did not listen. I found a proof na nakabalik na ako sa sarili kong timeline but this is not the future I've imagined. 

My feet was going nowhere. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako papunta basta ang alam ko ay kailangan kong makita ang lugar kung saan huli kong nakita si Earth. The place is unrecognizable. Hindi ako pamilyar. Tila ba ngayon lamang ako ipinanganak at ngayon ko lang kakabisaduhin ang lugar. 

Sinabunutan ko ang aking sarili. Ipinadyak ko sa lupa ang aking paa dahil sa inis. I want to curse the world for giving me this situation. Nakakatawa lang dahil nakabalik nga ako sa aking panahon but nobody recognizes me. Mas mabuti pa ang manatili sa panahon ng kabataan ni maam. Atleast there, they know me. kahit hindi alam ni mama na anak niya ako, atleast they know my existence hindi 'yung ganito. 

Fate is playing me. Ako yata ang nakita niya at napagtripan kaya ginaganito niya ako. " Ano bang gusto mo? I'm tired playing this game already. Kung ilalagay mo rin naman pala ako sa ganitong sitwasyon, you should have make me understand! " Salty waters gush out from my eyes habang sinusumbatan ko ang tadhana. 

"Why is this happening to me?" 

"Bakit ako? Ha! Bakit?" I asked feeling hopeless. My knees weaken and my lips tremble as I cried out what I'm feeling right now. 

I want to give up. I know I lost. I may saved Earth but I failed to saved my family. I might go crazy because of this situation. I've suffered enough. Dalawang beses na akong nawalan ng mahal sa buhay. First my mother and now si papa naman. Everything is like a bitter pill I need to drink.

I want someone to hug me right now and comfort me. I want someone to tell me that everything's going to be fine. That this things that give me pain will all pass.  But when I look around, no one is there for me. And this feeling is very lonely.                                                                                                                                                       

I let a few minutes to pass to make myself calm. I sigh after realizing that I have to deal this problem on my own now. I can't be dependent to someone especially if no one is around who'll understand. Tumayo ako at pinagpagan ang sarili dahil hinayaan ko lang ang aking sarili na nakasalampak  sa gitna ng kalsada habang umiiyak kanina. 

I turn my head when a blinding light beams right in front of me. May kasama pa itong malakas na busina. I want to move and step aside. A medium size vehicle is approaching fast towards me but I can't find my self. Seems like I am still in a daze. 

I was in the middle of being tranced when a strong pair of hands grab me and wrap me on its warm arms. Napapikit ako habang pinapakinggan ang malakas na tibok ng aking puso dahil sa kaba. Muntikan na akong masagasaan. 

" Shit! Kamuntikan na 'yon. Magpapakamatay ka ba?" Bakas sa boses nito ang pag aalala. Hindi pa rin niya ako binibitiwan kaya nararamdaman ko ang init ng kanyang katawan sa akin na naghahatid ng kaginhawaan sa akin. His smell reach my nose and I must say he smell so good.