Love me Endlessly

Chapter 17- Leting it all out

I sat on the stairs of my apartment building, arms wrapped around my knees, and salty tears making my face feel raw. I could still hear Lyric's screams as the police try to pull him away from Ms. Stone. I couldn't take all the questions being asked and all the rummaging through my...his...our stuff like it was just for everyone to see. I couldn't take them examining Ms. Stone like she was some project. I couldn't take the feeling of knowing that I can't help Lyric with any of this. It hurt too much.

I stared at the side walk as it was getting drenched in the cold rain and I realized everything bad always happens in the rain. Nothing can go right when it's rains. There is either someone dying, getting into a car crash, people fighting, or worse. Nothing ever goes the right way when it rains.

The sound of people's feet hitting the pavement fills my ears. I sniffled and wiped at my face, not in the mood to be asked what was wrong by some stranger who I probably never talk to again. The sound grew closer and I thought about going back inside but something cut that thought off.

"Ella!" A mixture of three voices filled my ears, all male, and all filled with relief and concern. I looked up at the sound and found Jared, Rain, and...Shane, all running towards me. I stood up from the stairs and jogged down them to meet them half way, tears already pouring down my face.

I went with my instinct and went straight for Shane, sobbing hysterically. Our bodies collide together in a mix of emotion and rain. I buried my face into his chest and sobbed, letting out all my emotions into his shirt and the hug.

"Oh thank god!" Shane exclaimed, picking me off the ground for a few seconds. "I thought something happen to you." I cried harder and pressed myself deeper into his chest. Comfort washed over me and the sick feeling I felt slowly went away as I continued to be protected in his arms.

"I...I...I..." I tried to force the words out but couldn't them over the sobs rushing from my mouth. I wanted to say I'm fine but I couldn't because I wasn't fine. "S-S-She's dead. I watched her die....and I-I couldn't do anything. I should have done something." I sobbed looking up at him. His face filled with concern and sorrow as he gently wiped at my face.

"It's gonna be okay." He whispered pulling me back into a hug. I felt my knees give out from the all the fear and grief I was feeling, pulling both of us to the ground. "It's gonna be okay..." He cooed, petting my hair in a soothing fashion. I felt other arms wrap around us and knew it was Rain and Jared trying to be comforting like Shane.

But no one gave me the same comfort like Shane did. It was like even if I was having the worst day of my life I could always count of him to make my day better. He gave me a feeling that I was safe as long as I was wrapped up in arms, protected from all the bad in the world.

But I got the same feeling with Lyric...

"Oh god! Lyric!" I cried pushing my away out of the hug. Shane looked at me in shock at first but his face soften as I rushed to my feet. "We have to see him. This is worse for him than it is for me." I took a hold of his hand, pulling him towards the house. The others followed.

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We walked into the now camera clicking filled apartment, almost being blinded by all the flashes. Lyric sat on the sofa, hands on the side on his face, bottom lip being gnawed at by his teeth, and his body rocking back and forth. He looked like his whole world was slowly crashing around him. He looked up, probably hearing our footsteps, and wiped at his face.

His eyes lingered on me for a few seconds, scanning past both Shane and Jared, before landing on Rain. Even though they didn't really show it back in England Rain and Lyric were really close. Rain was just as upset as I was when I told him that Lyric moved but in a different way.