Love me Endlessly

Chapter 42- Never letting go.

*BEFORE YOU READ THIS CHAPTER PLEASE READ WHAT'S BELOW*

Hey! So in this chapter there is gonna be a song that I'm sure a lot of you know and what not. I just want to say that in the story this band doesn't exist and so that's why the character is going to say they wrote the song and blah blah blah.

I DO NOT TAKE CREDIT FOR THIS SONG IN ANYWAY. THE BAND WHO WROTE THIS SONG OWNS IT COMPLETELY AND I AM NOT TRYING TO STEAL THERE WORK! I PROMISE.

Anyways now that is out of the way! Thank you for reading and enjoy the chapter!

Talk to you again at the end!!

I unlocked my apartment door and almost fell to the ground as it gave no resistant when I pushed it open. I flicked on the lights, dropped my keys into the bowl, and left my bags by the now closed door. I let out a little breath of comfort once it hit me that I was in my own house and not at the hospital. My phone started buzzing from my pocket and I groaned knowing it was probably Rain.

"Hey." I answered with out looking at the caller ID.

"Hey babe." Maddie's voice filled my ear and I jumped in surprise, fully expecting Rain.

"Oh...Hi." I said back earning a chuckle from her.

"You already said that dork." She teased and I smiled a bit. "How have you been?"

"I've been better. Just got back from a weekend at Rain's cabin with Lyric and them." I told her, picking up my bags, and heading to the bedroom.

"You spent a weekend with Lyric?" She asked sounding shocked.

"Yeah but all of it was spent with him being in the hospital." I sighed, sitting my bag on the bed. There was a long pause and I knew she wanted me to explain. "He overdosed."

"Oh my god." She breathed. "Is he okay?"

"He'll be better after a month in rehab." I replied, pulling out the clothes I didn't get to wear, and walking over to the dresser. "The whole thing was pretty terrifying but I think it finally made him realize what those drugs can do to his life."

"No kidding. Man, that's crazy." I nodded even though she couldn't see me. "How is everything between the two of you?"

"Well, we're not back together if that's what you're wondering." I started and heard her sigh a little bit. "And I don't know if he still wants to talk to me. A lot happened this weekend and in the beginning of it we weren't doing so good. But then him overdosing changed everything and we actually acted like friends." I let a little smile form on my lips at the thought of how normal and nice everything was. "But I still don't where we stand."

"I think it's gonna be a while before you do, Ella." She pointed out and I knew she was right. "Have you talked to Shane?" I bit my lip at the sound of his name and flopped down on the bed, staring down at our matching tattoo.

"No. No, I haven't." I said softly, already picturing him in my mind. "Should I...talk to him?"

"I mean...I would if it was me. Just to find out where y'all stood." She paused for a few seconds before adding. "Do you think you want to be with him?" I groaned and threw an arm over my face.

"I don't know."I whined in frustration. "I don't know what I want. I know I love them both but it's just...I can't figure out what to do, Maddie. I don't want to cut them off and forget about them completely but I getting to the point where I think I should just move on from them both. Start new with someone else. I'm tried of stressing over this." I confessed and felt a huge weight lift off of me once I said it aloud.