Heartbreak Girl: Luke Hemmings

Chapter 45

Alex's POV

I had no work or Uni today. Just a day to myself. Mum was working and Will was at Rosie's house. Mum was no idea about Luke and I's fight and I intend to keep it that way. I have revived multiple texts from Luke and I ignored every single one of them. I revived some texts from Calum and Bec asking if I was okay and I simply replied with, yes. Which was a total lie but I didn't need them worrying over me.

I eventually pulled myself out of bed to have a shower, which I did. I wander my hair and my whole body, making myself feel clean. Showers are a good place to think and relax, but this time I was thinking too much and I wasn't relaxed at all. I eventually got out of the shower and dried my body and my hair.

I put on a white sleeveless playsuit with cut outs in the middle and around the legs, my pear earrings and my silver love heart necklace. To be honest I don't know why I'm getting dressed, I guess wearing nice clothes makes me feel good about myself when I feel shit. Weird, I know but at least it can make me feel good about myself at a time like this.

I went down stairs to see if we had anything for breakfast that I actually wanted, we didn't. I don't really like breakfast that much, unless I'm actually hungry at that time of the morning which I hardly ever am. I went back upstairs into my room and slipped on some gold sandals and grabbed my phone and purse and headed to Sofia's cafe. Probably my favourite place to eat right now. 

I plugged my phone in and 'You and Me' by Disclosure was playing. God I love that song so much. It was actually Luke who showed me the song, we were in my room just going through each other music on each others phones and I clicked on the song and instantlly fell in love with it, apart from the fact that it reminds me of Luke. 

I don't actually know what Luke and I are right now because we didn't ever break up. It just feels like we did, two weeks and I have been ignoring him. Hell, we spoke more when he was on tour in America. I know that he didn't mean it he was just growing angry and frustrated at me but it hurt and Luke needs to control what comes out of his mouth a lot of the time. I don't want to lose him, not now. We have been together for around 6 months now and I need him in my life. It hurts to know that with one conversation we could be done.

I eventually arrived at Sofia's and headed inside, only to spot a familar blonde boy. Luke. Damn it why does he have to be here. I looked away but it was too late, he had already seen me anyway. I headed to the counter to order my breakfast and they gave me my table number and I sat down in the corner table, trying to avoid Luke. I wanted to talk to him desperatly but not right now, not in public for everybody to see. 

"Um can I sit down?" a voice asked and I looked up to see Luke. He looked like he hadn't slept properly in weeks but then again, neither had I. It feels like a repeat of when he called me a whore but only worse.

"Yeah sure, do whatever" my voice came of harsh and Luke raised an eyerbow at me. 

"Ally please listen to me, please hear me out for once" Luke began but I shook my head.

"Not in public Luke where anybody could hear or see us, I know that both of us don't want that world to know what is going on between us right now" I stated and Luke nodded.

"Can I just say something then?" Luke asked and I nodded, hoping for the best but expecting the worst (lol hi forever young) .

"You look beautiful today" Luke said and I went bright red. No matter what is going on between us Luke can make me smile and I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. My food eventually came and Luke eventually left and told me to meet him at his house once I was finished and that made me freak out. What if he wants to end things, oh my god no that can not happen. I went and paid for my food and then headed back to Luke's house.

My hands were shaking by the time I knocked on his door and nobody answerd, well thats werid. I would expect Jack or Ben to be home at this time of the day. I turned the handle on the door and it was unlocked, so I walked in. I headed up to Luke's room but he wasn't there, so I went down stairs into the living room. Still no sign of the blonde haired boy, so I headed to his backyard when I heard the familar strumming of his guitar. 

"Gonna be you and me, gonna be everything you've ever dreamed" Luke sung from the tree house and I wanted to cry. My god does he know how to make me emotional. I sat down on the grass looking up to the tree house were he was singing to me from. After he had finished the song I climbed up into the tree house to see Luke with a piece of paper in his hands.

"Luke what are you-" I began but he told me to be quiet which I did, so I sat down on the couch as he read me what was on the paper.

"Alexandra Madeline Payton, my god words can not describe my love for you. A god damn song can't describe my love for you. When I first met you when we were 4, I didn't think that you would have this huge impact on me, probably because I was 4 and didn't think that much anyway. I first figured out that I liked you in year 6, when Calum liked you. Calum didn't know that and I didn't plan on telling him either. I kept that to myself and I had planned on telling you in year 8, well maybe but then you left and everything changed. We were still best friends but then you found Josh and you two were inseperable. I found Aleisha but she didn't mean that much to me, sure we had a good relationship but I wanted you but I coudln't have you. Josh had you and he made you happy and that is all I wanted for you, to be happy. We still hung out all the time and I could see that you weren't the same person you were back in year 8, bubbly, happy and excited by all the small things. I knew it wasn't Josh because when you two were together, you were so happy. I let it slide from my mind but I never thought it would be Aleshia making you sad, good I was blinded. I would have ended things with her in a heart beat, just to make sure you were happy. When you and Josh broke up I was sorta shocked because I thought you two were gonna last forever but before I had the chance to make you mind, I was whisked away onto the One Direction tour. 9 months without you was like hell and the boys kept teasing me and saying I was 'whipped'. I was whipped but I would never tell them that. When I came back to Australia I knew I had to make you mine and I did. You make me so happy, all the time. No matter what is going on in my life you make me so happy. You always put others before you, you make the room you are in light up and god I am so lucky. So lucky to call you mine because you make me so happy. I love you so much and I never want to lose you ever because you are beautiful soul and basically I'm so sorry for what I said the other day and I love you so much Ally". 

"Oh my god Lucas" I said getting up from the couch and pulling the boy into a hug. 

"It wasn't too much was it Ally?" Luke asked as I continued to hug him.

"No Luke it was so perfect, you are so perfect god damn it I love you so much" I said placing my lips onto his.

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