Pain Princess meets Death Prince

Chapter 29

EUNICE

Naisip kong pumunta sa rooftop ng building namin. Nasa pinakadulong part ang building ng college namin kaya hindi matao. I wanted to take a nap. Ayoko mang mag-isip ng kung ano-anong bagay but I can't help it. Hundreds of emotions are kept inside me. Wanting to burst out, wanting to be recognized, and is getting my sane out in me.

Pagka-akyat ko, may nakita akong comforter at unan sa isang bench. Ayos ah, parang alam na alam nyang magpupunta ako dito para matulog. Or baka may natulog na dito kanina at naiwan lang. Anyway, hindi nya naman siguro mamasamain kung makikigamit ako.

Paglapit ako, may nakita akong note sa unan.

I know you'll be coming here to sleep so I decided to bring this. Sleepwell Princess :) – Harvey

I smiled at the note. He really knows me too well. Kinuha ko na yung unan at nilatag yung comforter. Dun ako pumwesto sa mini garden kaya malilim at hindi ako makikita kung sakali mang may magpunta dito.

Humiga na ko, deep thinking of the things around me. How these things get so complicated. How things between us gets so complicated.

I'm thinking about how the things between us get fucked up. How the happily ever after I've imagined turned into a heart-breaking ending. I was hurt, and still hurting. I don't know how far I can handle being so cold to Rein. I thought the hatred I'm feeling is enough to cover this stupid love inside me. I know it's insane, to still keep on loving the person who hurt me years ago. Hindi ko alam kung kakayanin ko pang tumagal sa ganitong set up. Sa pagtago ng katotohanang ako si Isabelle. Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko pa dahil everytime na nakikita ko ang mapupungay nyang mata na parang nakikiusap sa'kin na patawarin sya, nararamdaman kong unti-unting bumibigay ang sistema ko na hindi dapat mangyari. Mabuti sana kung sa isang sorry lang mapawi na lahat ng sakit para maging okay na pero hindi eh. Andun pa din. At kung pwedeng sa isang haplos at halik lang bumalik kami sa dati. Sa mga panahon kung saan akala ko mahal nya ko at mahal ko din sya.

Pwede naman eh, kung hindi ka lang mapride.

Sabi ng isang tinig sa utak ko. I know, my pride is the only one who's stopping me from confessing all this things and go back to Rein's arms again. But the pain, its still here. I'm afraid to be hurt again by the same person twice. I've learned my lesson. I'm just afraid to take the risk.

Love is all about risking Eunice.

Damn this fear. Damn this pain. Damn Rein for hurting me so badly, to the point that I'm afraid in risking my everything. They say everyone deserves a second chance but I refuse to believe that. For me, not everyone deserves a second chance, it depends upon the person and it depends upon the situation. And in our situation, second chance is hard for me to give.

I remember what Jarvis had told me when we were in my island. He said he's been waiting for me. Waiting for me for too long. I can feel my heart skip a beat whenever Rein waiting for me crosses my mind. I can feel these damn butterflies in my stomach but eventually, the feeling turns to hatred. I know I'm making a big fuss on the bet that happened years ago but can you blame me? If almost everything I had lost with just a matter of a day? I think I can't forgive him. Not yet, now now.

"A penny for your thoughts?" someone said. I open my eyes, only to see Harry sitting beside me.

"Kanina ka pa nandito?" I asked him in with confused eyes.

"Hindi naman, mga five minutes pa lang." Sagot nya na kinagulat ko.

"I didn't notice your presence." I said, shocked.