The Fix

Quarante et un / Sunflower

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Nathan "Menace"

"I get the feeling that maybe she's just not used to the life that you live." Danielle shrugged.

I sat in the other bed in her hotel room, as she was stretched across hers. I needed to vent about Audrey, and right now she's the only one who'd listen.

"But I need her to get used to it. I wanna be with her."

"Does she wanna get used to it? Nathan a lot of girls just wanna live regular lives."

That, I understood. But I didn't want to have to imagine having to let her go because of that very reason. Every time I've thought about it, I felt like shit.

"Enough of Audrey and I. Who is this Cameron guy and why are you still with him?"

"We've been friends for a couple years, after you and I were done...I decided to give him a try. Soon he got aggressive, forceful...and now...."

"I just worry about you Danielle. You gotta watch out. Crazy niggas ain't like crazy bitches. Crazy niggas kill-"

"I know, Nathan. I know." She sighed.

"Imma make sure you're okay. Right now Drey doesn't understand and-"

"Woah, Nathan. If this is gonna put a wedge between you and Audrey-"

"It's not, it's not. You being safe is important to me, even if we aren't together anymore."

"I don't want you choosing me over your girlfriend."

"That's not it at all, I love Audrey. But you're safety still matters to me. It's not a competition."

"Could I...ask you something Nathan?"

Audrey

I sighed to myself as I layed in bed alone.

I need friends.

Times like this, I'd vent to Nathan. But when it comes to ranting about Nathan, I had basically no one.

Maybe I was being dramatic? He was just helping out a friend.

But I truly felt like a break was what I needed.

But damn, it sucks to be alone.

As a last resort, I got my phone off the nightstand and texted Deidra.

Me:
I need to vent.

Deidra:
bitch me too.

Suddenly, a FaceTime call appeared.of course, I answered immediately.

"It's been a while..but girl tell me."

"It's about Nathan...I don't know about him and I."

"Why's that? I thought you two were happy?"

"We are. I even told him I loved him..but I'm just thinking about his life is so fast and intense. I'm not sure I'm ready for that."

"So choose Audrey." She laughed.

"What do you mean?"

"Choose him, or your old life. But clearly you can't have both."

"But-"

"I know he doesn't wanna hide you forever. So make a choice on which is more important."

I tried telling myself that in the long run, the life I wanted for myself was more important to me, but I found myself wondering...would I even be happy living that life without Nathan?