alone | noen eubanks

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Noens POV
I finally connect to the airplane wifi and immediately get a text that goes through.
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?: noen
me: Who's this?
?: Jillian. i know you dont like me but hear me out
me: What do you want.
jillian: scar.
jillian: you don't deserve her
me: Grow up already
jillian: she doesn't love you as much as she claims.
jillian: she loves me, i love her.
jillian: you're just the middle piece she doesn't want to hurt
me: Leave me alone. You're not funny.
jillian: fine i will
jillian: just wanna let you know that she guilt fucked you.
me: What does that mean?
jillian: we fucked first and she only went down on you to not feel guilty (;
me: Why would I believe you.
jillian: idk it's all up to you
jillian: everything she does with me she repeats with you to not hurt you
jillian: she doesn't love you.
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Scar shifts and moves her head off my shoulder.
I peek at her to see if she's awake.
Still asleep.
Is anything Jillian said true? Why would I believe her. She's crazy.
"Why are you looking at her like that." Lyra whispers.
I relax my face.
"Do you know anything?" I show her the text messages.
Her eyes widen the more she reads.
"Holy shit. Is it true?" She asks me. I shrug.
We both turn our heads to look at Scar.
Now looking at her from this perspective I question if I actually ever knew her. She's so selective on what we know about her.
"Her phone." Lyra whispers pointing at her phone laying on her thigh.
"Isn't that just wrong, we can't snoop." I whisper back. Tempted to take it. "What if she catches us."
"She took a sleeping pill to get some sleep, we'll be good." Lyra reaches over me and grabs Scars phone off her lap.
She uses Scars thumb gently to unlock it.
We both look at eachother and back at Scar to make sure she's still asleep.
Lyra clicks messages.
No wifi.
"Give me." I grab the phone and buy airplane wifi for it (dk what it's called ahaha). I hand the phone back to Lyra and she refreshes the messages.
Her most recent conversation was with Jillian. Lyra clicks it and starts reading.
The most recent conversion was Jillian threatening to tell me the truth if Scar wouldn't end her friendship with me.
"What the fuck." Lyra mutters under her breath. We continue reading up.
We read some things and skip others. We get to a conversation from when they dropped me off at the airport.
"Did she hook up with Jillian when I left for tour?" I look at Lyra.
"She cancelled hanging out with me the night before we left for Hawaii. Must've been why." She sighs.
We continue reading.
We get to one from around mid-ending of May.
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j 🖤: last night was fun (;
me: i feel guilty J. yk how i feel about noen.
me: im heading over to his house rn, we shouldn't have done anything
me: no offense but i wanted my first time to be special yk.
j🖤: you're still a virgin chil. everyone knows lesbian sex isn't exactly losing your virginity.
j🖤: why are you going to noens?
me: you just left me & i want to be with someone tonight.
j🖤: are you gonna fuck him too.
me: what does it matter to you.
j🖤: i fucking love you the fuck.
j🖤: how are you gonna do me one night then your boy toy the next.
me: he's not my boy toy.
me: just leave me alone J.
j🖤: what the fuck.
me: don't fucking talk to me.
me: atleast not right now.
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Lyra and I just stare at eachother and back at the messages.
She closes the phone and places it back on Scars thigh.
"Are Jillian and Scar more than friends?" Lyra whispers.
I nod slowly. "I think so." I feel my chest begin to hurt.
As if I've been stabbed in the heart.
I slightly raise my hand and place it above my heart.
Lyra places a hand on my shoulder.
"We just question her when she wakes up." She looks out the window for the remainder of the flight.
I stare at the TV screen trying to grasp what I've just found out.
If I thought Scars feelings for me where everywhere before, I've confirmed that anything she may feel is probably just the guilt talking.

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gns no one hmu i sleep now