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PART 29

HIS POV ( Listen to With A Smile by Reese Lansangan )

"Travis!" Gwyn shouted.

I immediately ran toward the hospital and went to the room where Emily was. I stopped as I was about to open the door because Gwyn grabbed my arm.

"They're inside... I think... it's better to wait... than to enter---" I slowly let go of the door knob and hid.

"I thought she was fine!?" I shouted frustratedly while brushing my hair. I couldn't sit still. When I heard James say that Emily was rushed to the hospital again, it felt like the sky and earth had crashed down on me.

"SHIT! FUCK! FUCK! BULLSHIT!" I closed my eyes in utter frustration.

I don't fucking like the idea of Emily leaving me.

I didn't get any answer. There was nothing I could do except sit down and shut my eyes tightly. She was fine in the past few days. Why does this have to happen again? Why? I rubbed my face as I waited for Emily's parents to leave.

"Tito and Tita just left. Let's go, hurry!" I stopped walking when I saw James talking to Emily's parents.

I smiled at him as a sign of 'thank you.'

As I opened the door, I quickly closed my eyes because I didn't want to see Emily in this state again. I wasn't ready for this! Fuck it! Why does this have to happen to her? Why is she the one suffering?

"Travis, open your eyes." When I opened my eyes, I saw Emily with so many needles sticking into her body.

I walked slowly toward her and held her hand. My eyes started to fill with tears.

"I'm sorry, Emily," I whispered.

"Sorry, Emily... sorry," I hugged her tightly. I couldn't help but feel angry with myself because it felt like it was my fault again.

The doctor came in and stared at me. I glared at him.

"What happened to her?" I tried my best to stay calm. I wanted to scream. I wanted to be angry at everyone.

"Are you related to her?"

"JUST PLEASE FUCKING ANSWER ME!" I was trying to be polite, but this guy was really testing my patience.

"Can you calm down?! Are you related to her?" I closed my eyes in frustration.

If I say that I'm just acquainted with Emily, he probably won't answer me. Fuck.

"I'm her boyfriend." I looked at Emily, still peacefully asleep.

"She has lung and kidney cancer... and it's spreading."

That sentence shattered my heart into pieces to the point that I couldn't even feel the pain. It was excruciating.

"IS THERE ANYTHING WE CAN DO?!"

Say yes, please.

"When cancer cells travel to other organs in the body, it's called metastasis. Cancer that metastasizes... to the lungs is a life-threatening condition that develops when cancer in another area of the body spreads to the lungs... Primary tumors that commonly spread to the lungs include: bladder cancer..." I held her hand while the doctor kept speaking.

Gwyn turned to face the wall, and I could hear her crying as well.

I cannot describe the pain I am feeling right now.

I want to cry.

I want to blame myself.

I want to scream.