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PART 16

HER POV

I sighed.

I'm currently staring at Travis. After we talked, he suddenly fell asleep. Sa sobrang pagod siguro kaya siya nakatulog. Kinumutan ko siya at umupo sa kan'yang tabi.

Ngayon naiintindihan ko na kung bakit sinabi niya sa akin lahat ng masasakit na salita noong lasing siya. Natatakot na kasi siyang maulit. Natatakot siyang baka gawin sa kanya lahat 'yon nanaman.

Masakit pero kailangan ko siyang intindihin dahil alam kong hindi lalabas sa bibig niya 'yon ng walang dahilan. Naiitindihan ko na.

"You really had a painful past, Travis... that's why, I can't blame you for being like this." Dahan dahan kong hinihimas ang kan'yang mukha.

"I had no idea from what you had been through... I-I never thought it was that hard. Hindi ko akalain na gano'n kasakit 'yong nasapit mo. I-I'm sorry to hear that, Travis. I-I'm sorry for not being there in the time that you needed someone to understand you. I came to late, sorry... but I'm here now." Sinuklay ko ang buhok niya.

From the very start, I know he has a good heart. It's just that, it became a stone because of the pain he felt. Umaabot talaga tayo sa punto ng mga buhay natin na magbabago tayo ng dahil sa sakit na naranasan natin.

A change like that isn't healthy. A change that we want to distance ourselves from anyone because we're already afraid of getting hurt, replaced over or cheated on. A change that we think that will be the best choice for us.

Pero hindi 'yon 'yong pagbabago na kailangan natin. We need to change  ourselves. Walang iba. Kailangan nating magbago kasi kailangan nating i-improve 'yong sarili natin.

We don't need to change for those people who hurt us. We don't need to change for those people who replaced us. We don't need to change for those people who left us. We need to change for ourselves. For the sake of our own self.

"Travis, I'll just go home." I sighed when he moved for a bit and held my hand tighter.

"I'm... I'm s-sorry, Travis... I-I need to go home." Pinagbitiw ko ang braso ko mula sa kan'yang pagkakahawak. I walked closer to the door but before I could lock it, I took a glance on him.

"I'm here, Travis. Thank you for trusting me."

I went home.

Siya 'yong tipo ng tao na hindi niya sasabihin sa'yo kung importante ka ba sa buhay niya o hindi bagkus, ipaparamdam niya. If there is a man of words, there is Travis Goosen... the man of action.

He won't tell you if he trusts you but he'll tell his problems and secrets. He won't tell you that you're important to his life but he'll make you feel that you are special for him. He won't tell you that he doesn't want to leave but he'll do everything just to make you stay.

That's what Travis has that I know he won't tell me. He's a secretive yet showy person. Naniniwala ako na makakabangon pa si Travis. Alam kong matutuloy niya pa lahat ng pangarap para sa pamilya at sarili niya. Naniniwala ako sa kakayahan niya.

I WOKE up feeling sleepy. It's Saturday. I need to go to the orphanage. Habang pababa ako ng hagdanan ay nagulat ako nang salubungin ako ng yakap ni Mama. Napakunot ang aking noo.

"M-Ma? Anong--"

"Congrats, honey! You don't need to keep it as a secret anymore! I know that you're already graduating!" I saw Papa behind holding a key.

"Here's your keys. Honey, Papa is so proud to have you." Nanlaki lalo ang aking mata. Nag-unahang tumulo ang luha sa aking mga mata. I never expected that despite of the grade I gave, they still gave me a present.