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PART 30

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I glanced at the calendar and realized it was already July. Time is moving too fast. Why is it that when I want to spend more time with Emily, it speeds up even more?

I looked at her and saw that she seemed deep in thought. I went closer and hugged her tightly.

"It's not good to keep things bottled up. Let it out."

She only responded with a deep sigh. She turned her face to me and stared directly into my eyes.

"Travis, I'm sorry... this is all I am. There's nothing special about me. I'm sorry I'm not as sexy, smart, or beautiful as them. I'm sorry because this is all I can offer. I'm very sorry if I don't deserve you because this is all I am—nothing more, nothing less. You can replace me. I admit, I'm not sexy, pretty, or even famous. I know how easily someone can replace me because I'm not the kind of person people would be proud of. So if you ever replace me, I'll understand... I'll understand."

"Damn, no." I kissed her forehead.

"For me, you are the sexiest and most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my life. You're still beautiful with those pimples, stretch marks, blackheads, chapped or pale lips, big eyes, small ass, flat chest, and brown skin. Having those doesn't take away from your beauty."

"Travis, stop loving me... please, I am not worthy of your love."

"Worthy or not, I'll take the risk. When it comes to you, I'll take whatever you can give. I'm at a point in my life where I'm scared to fall in love, to get attached, to be happy—because I feel like sadness will come crashing down in return, and the person who made me happy might leave. I'm always afraid of everything, but I always take risks, even though in the end, I'm the one who gets left behind and hurt."

She just stared at me.

I wanted to hug her and tell her that no matter what happens, I'll take a chance on her.

I'm ready for everything when it comes to her.

She means everything to me, and I'll do anything to make her believe that she deserves my love.

"You deserve me, and I deserve you, okay? We deserve each other, Emily."

She just lay down, and all I could do was watch her as she gazed out the window.

"Emily, I'm not asking for more than what you can give. I remember my dad once said, 'If someone asks for more than what you can give, that's a sign it's not true love.' I suddenly realized that if you truly love someone, you should understand the meaning of contentment. You shouldn't ask for anything more. Don't expect too much. I also realized that if you really love someone, you don't say things like, 'If you really love me, do this or that.' It's like you don't trust your partner's love. I've learned to love someone for what they can give."

She stared at me with tired eyes.

"Travis, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being so moody. My mood changes every hour. One moment I'm happy, the next I'm sad. One moment I'm talkative, the next I'm quiet. Worse, I've been giving you attitude these past months. I just want to thank you for understanding me. You don't know how much I treasure you."

"Pssh, I already know you too well. I understand your personality. No need to worry—I can handle your moods, and I'm more than willing to understand you, you get me?" I pinched her cheeks.

I kept looking at her, but she kept staring out the window.

"And, Travis... I can't bear to ignore you. That's my weakness—I don't know how to hold grudges. Every time I get upset or angry, instead of ignoring you, I'm the one who ends up approaching you first and apologizing. Because honestly, I don't want to lose someone special to me. I don't want to lose anyone anymore. That's why, as long as I can swallow my pride, I will—just to make sure someone stays in my life."