Why won't You Love me ((Suga Yandere 21+))) ft JHOPE

••• 사십육 ~ leftovers •••

HOSEOK POV

So y/n and I weren't talking.

"Gummy bear! Come and eat love!"

I wasn't sure if I was more frustrated or annoyed with the little angel right now. We had arrived at my property 2 hours ago, the reality of having y/n back still not yet sunken in. 24 hours ago, I had never imagined we would be together like this, on a deserted island, with no one to stop me from the marriage I had waited so long to consummate. I had felt happy, scared it was a dream, cautious, even that everything was going to work out.

But that was before she knew of my plan to fake her death so she could live a fearless life with Hoshi until I took care of them.

It hadn't gone over well.

"Gummy bear, where are you?" I huffed, exiting the now-empty villa, heart pounding. This was ridiculous--didn't she realize how stressful it was to me now when she ran off without saying anything? And after all that had happened....

Of course, I hadn't expected y/n to take the whole fake-death-disappear-from-society thing well. But I had assumed she would understand my motives for control--I wanted her safe, more than anything, and death was the only option. Yet

"A prisoner--I'll be a prisoner for the rest of my life! My family, TaeTae, Channie....heck, even JB! I'll never see them again, never hold a job in my own name, never go to college..." Her eyes had welled up then, hopelessness written all over them. "Just kill me for real oppa! I see no difference."

But that had been too much for me.

"Kill you? Why the fuck would I kill you?" I had shouted, losing my patience. "Don't you understand? This heist is temporary, just until--"

"Until WHAT? Min Yoongi is dead? Until his company collapses? Until you kill Lay?"

I hadn't had the heart to tell her that that was just the beginning of the list. But she could never know about the others, lurking in the shadows, waiting to mutilate every inch of her.....

"Y/N!"

Just the thought of it sent me into another panic attack. I needed to find her, right now.

"Y/N, WHERE ARE YOU?" My feet took me past the patio and around the house to the back, facing shorewards.

"Y/n!"

Goddamnit, where was she? I should have never left her alone in the living room...

"Y/n please--I don't want to fight anymore! Just come and have lunch with me," I begged, but the wind took my words, sweeping them over the sand dunes and into oblivion. Tears beginning to sting my eyes, I turned my attention to the cove instead, scanning the shore. "Y/n!"

Oh god, she hadn't left the island had she? Gotten in some boat, paddled away in childish anger--

"Y/n, please just-"

There.

I had found her.

I couldn't see her face--her back was to the house but her body was visible--resolute, half-submerged in black ocean, and getting farther away from land with each passing second.

"No~"

I was down the cove steps and across the beach in a heartbeat. Not even bothering to roll up my pants, I tore into the water, pushing harder with each tide that threatened to send me back.

"Y/N!" My voice echoed across the water, yet I knew it was too far for her to hear. "Y/n , STOP!"

She did not turn.