girl crush [ idols x idol!oc ]

girl crush [ thirty eight ]

everyone has been calling me, but i've ignored their calls and their messages. even ceo himself was trying to contact me but they couldn't. i felt guilty, but i was really hurt.

i stayed in japan, still living here secretly after a whole week. articles have been circulating about me going missing, and i also felt guilty about that, but it was the only thing that made me feel like i was safe.

until one day, i heard someone knocking on my hotel room. out of curiosity on who it was, i opened the door and to say that i was shocked was an understatement.

"s-sooji, god, thank god it's you!" he said, and then he wiped his teary eyes before he hugged me.

i blinked my eyes rapidly before hugging him back. i felt his body shake as he hugged me tighter, and i bit my lower lip.

"y-yah, eunwoo. why are you crying?" i asked, and then he pulled away from the hug.

"i-i was so worried about you! i didn't know where to look for you. i went back here in japan and asked hotels and wherever. i'm so happy i found you. please... come back, sooji," he said, and i sighed.

"don't cry, idiot. i'm just trying to escape for a while. it's not like someone misses-"

"idiot. i missed you a lot. like, a whole lot. you don't know how much i missed you," he said, and i looked down.

i sat down on my bed, and then looked away. i shouldn't even feel this way. i shouldn't even let my heart beat faster than it should right now, but it already is.

i'm not even supposed to be feeling this way for eunwoo when i am still supposed to be in a fake relationship with donghyuk.

i ran a hand through my hair, and then sighed, making eunwoo sit down next to me.

"come back to korea, sooji. i promise, i won't let them hurt you," he said, and i furrowed ny brows as i turned my head to him.

hurt me? them?

"what do you mean?" i asked, and then he closed his eyes before shaking his head.

"ever since yg announced that you went missing, some fans have turned against you. they keep saying that you should be out of your group already. their comments have surfaced online," eunwoo said, and i smirked bitterly.

wow. how fast can tables turn?

i loved our fans. i mean, i still love them. but why did some of them turn against me? i sighed again for the nth time today.

i did this. it's my fault anyway, so why am i acting like it's not my fault that they start to hate me?

eunwoo's right. i should probably head back to korea to make things right. choi sooji shouldn't be someone who runs away.

i suddenly remembered what hyojong oppa told me. i should follow my heart. i should do what i want to do because i can only see who is really there for me during times like this.

i looked around. i didn't have much clothes here in my hotel room anyway. i'm just gonna bring a single bag and put some of my things there. yes.

"fine. i'm coming back to korea with you. i'm gonna face yg," i said, and then he blinked.

"are you sure? what are you gonna do about yg?" he asked, and i gave him a smile.

"me? we're gonna find out once i get back," i replied.

on our plane back to korea, all i could ever think about was how i should start talking about my situation to the ceo. i won't care about what others might think of me. i will do what i think is right.

but for now, i should rest.