girl crush [ idols x idol!oc ]

girl crush [ sixty two ]

"you can do it, sooji," whispered taeyong, as he held my hand.

we were in my dressing room, just right before i perform my title song on the mini album. i told him that he shouldn't come, since we were keeping things a secret, but he just said that he wanted to be here for me. so, here he is, covered in a bunch of clothes and a mask. he even wore shades, which made me giggle when i first saw him earlier. 

"thank you!" i told him, and then pecked his forehead.

"go catch hearts out there."

i bowed, as i finished every performance i had to do for the day. it was a bit tiring, changing into different outfits for different performances, doing three performances in an hour. i smiled at everyone, and then left the stage with jungkook.

"that was great! it was fun seeing the fans' shocked faces," said jungkook, so i just laughed and nodded at him before speaking.

"i guess, you're right. they were screaming our names and... did you see that some of them were crying? it touched my heart," i said, making him smile and nod.

"it's a great sight to look at. anyway, i saw this mysterious guy enter your dressing room, is that ta-"

"oh, please shut up. it was my manager," i lied, chuckling. he then chuckled, raising a brow at me.

"your manager has dyed hair? cool," he said, obviously not believing what i said earlier.

"why are you even suspicious? jeez," i said, making him laugh before shaking his head.

"nothing, i just want to say that after everything is revealed, i won. because i found out first," he said, laughing again after.

"good grief, I don't know what to do with you," i muttered under my breath, but all i heard was a snicker from him before he said his farewell and met with their manager.

i sighed, watching him walk away. he really wants to figure out what's happening between yong and i, huh? that guy, really. i shook my head, and then went straight to my dressing room. as i went inside, i was surprised to see my manager talking to taeyong while he was sat down on a chair. 

both of them looked at me as i entered, making me blink. my manager facepalmed, before i grinned and stood next to him.

"what's wrong, manager?" i asked, grinning mischievously at him.

"you didn't tell me taeyong was here! imagine what the people would say if they found out! are you two even dating?" manager said, pinching the bridge of his nose.

"don't be too stressed, manager-nim, you'll look older faster that way," i teased, and he sighed.

"stop toying with me. just tell me what the hell is going on between you two so that i can talk to the ceo about it," he replied, making me look at taeyong.

"we've decided to keep it a secret first. please keep it a secret, too," said taeyong, looking up to my manager.

manager sighed, before facing me. he shook his head, and then placed a hand on both of our shoulders.

"we have to tell the ceo about it, you know? but you can request to him not to reveal it to the public. as long as you're honest to the ceo, there wouldn't be any huge problems," manager said, making me look at taeyong.

"how can we-"

"you two are gonna talk to the ceo after we drive back to the building. good thing that i sent the stylists away first. you two are such sneaky kids," said manager, making both taeyong and i chuckle.

"oh, thank god," i sighed in relief, as taeyong and i got in the van safely. 

my manager was talking to someone on the phone, so i was guessing that it was staff in sm entertainment. i looked at taeyong, a slightly worried expression across my face. he pulled down his mask and took off his shades, smiling at me. he held my hand, making me smile back at him.

"are you nervous?" he asked, so i gave him a nod. "I'm nervous, too, but we can do this." 

"what if the ceo gets disappointed at me and thinks that it was a bad decision taking me back to sm? there are a lot of possibilities that can happen. either he allows it, he wants us to break up, or he kicks us out of the entertainment," i whispered, but he cupped my cheeks and kissed my forehead before giving me a small smile.

"don't worry much about it, okay? if we ever get kicked out, then at least i'm with you. although, it's highly unlikely that he will kick us out," taeyong said, making me smile at him.

we silenced, and then i just leaned my head on his shoulder. he gave me the other bud of his earphones, so i accepted it and closed my eyes. i could also feel his steady breathing, and by the moment that he wrapped his arm around my shoulders, i felt safer than before.

he was right, at least, we'd be together. i smiled, before i drifted off into sleep. it was nice knowing that there was someone who loves you so much and would go through hell with you, if he had to. there was no one like taeyong that could replace him in my heart, i knew it.

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author's note

Guyssss, omg. I just can't express my gratitude for everyone, like... How is my shitty book on 44.6k reads?! Everyone of you, you're so special to me ;-; you all make my heart go jumpy jumpy and AAAAA i just love you all. this book holds a special place in my heart, and i hope that it also reached your hearts ;-; omo, sunhyee, what r u saying. anyway, as this book is already almost coming to an end, i just want to know if you guys want another book like this? Anywaysss, always stay safe and take care of yourselves. I love you all <3 

-sunny