sonder

renaissance

Chapter Thirty Eight

Renaissance

(n.) Rebirth

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    I take back everything I said about possibly missing high school... block schedules, teachers, and school spirit are the worst. Kali failed to warn me that her high school was specifically bad for school spirit.

    The minute I walked onto campus grounds, the smell of cheerleading pompoms and football leather met my nose which instantly made my face cringe in protest. The clicks started forming immediately too... I could pick out the athletes, the scholars, the gamers, and every other cliche group that high school is made up of.

    The person that caught my eye though was Kali. She stood out from the crowd, almost as if I could feel the pull that she has over me. Her jean skirt fell just above her knee, her favourite sweater wrapping around her frame, and her beautiful curls tangled around her face with ease. I'd missed seeing her every day, I nearly forgot how breathtaking she is.

    When our eyes met though, that tinge of heartbreak shot through me once again. What we had, whatever it was, was over. This was the time for a new beginning. Which means, I had to leave Kali behind so when I broke eye contact with her green eyes first, I mentally patted myself on the back.

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    Time begun to get away from me before I knew it. School days turned into weeks and then the entire first month of senior year was done. I was surprised how easy it was to fall into place here at the new school, shocked actually. This weird feeling of belonging happened and I think part of that was the fact that my mentality had changed too.

    This town was a fresh start for me and I really took that to heart. I'd started to make friends with some of the guys on the soccer team and with just people in all of my classes in general. My first day, I really thought that this high school was going to be a drag and it was but I was way happier then I had been in a long time.

    My family and I were getting along. I found a counsellor in town that I was seeing regularly who was helping me to deal with my past. I had found healthy ways of coping through soccer and coaching Jeremiah. Everything was going well, for once it felt like.

    Some days still got tough, some days I didn't want to get out of bed but overall, I was good. After all of the dark times I've had, I was starting to see the light.

    Missing Kali hurt physically though, it was this constant tinge of pain being away from her. Honestly, I think that's one of the worst pains in the world... being away from the person who you love so much but can't have.

    I tried really hard to stay away from her, not to look at her, not to think about her, not to wish to be next to her... somedays, I succeeded... somedays, she's all I could think about. It was battle being away from her, constant and ever-present.

    Time was the only healer in this case though.

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