Alpha Games

Chapter 35-Lasting Goodbye

Waking up from my sleepless night still drenched in a cold sweat, my clothes and bed saturated with it. I wrinkled my nose at the smell fear,sadness,sorrow. The different emotions swelled inside of me until they leaked out, small whimpers escaping me. The knocking on my door went unheard as i went into the bathroom. Looking in the mirror the person who stared back at me looked old, washed up and wasted. This was taxing on my body and it had only been a mere 18 or so hours since my silent rejection. 

Pulling the knob on the shower the hot water scorched my skin, not being able to handle the burn i turned it to cold and sighed in relief. The Ice soothed the ache in my already cold heart, sitting in the bottom as the water rained down beside me i cried. I cried, like i haven't cried before, knowing the shower would drown out my cries of pain even my veins had turned to ice. 

Feeling completely drained, i cried until i had nothing left to escape my eyes. Shutting off the water i patted my cold body dry and stared at my reflection calling out to Sadie. 

'Sadie, please, please talk to me' 

nothing

'Sadie, i know you are hurting, i am too. I need you Sadie as you need me, we are apart of each other.'

nothing

'Sadie' i heaved a hard sigh as i pulled my hair into a ponytail walking away from the bathroom to get dressed.

 I could let myself fade away, i have heard stories of rejection and how it eats away at you slowly.  Just like how i am feeling, the numbness creeping in like a tarantula under your blankets silently waiting until you fall asleep to crawl up you body and sink its fangs in. Draining you of all your warm blood for you not to feel a thing as the venom lulls you silently to death. 

*Frantic Knocking* "Sar, i know you are not talking right now but i just want to know whats wrong. Please don't shut me out, your the first person to ever show me so much love and tender care. I can't bare to let it go away." Gezara pleaded from the doorway.

I stared out at the Blue Lagoon as Kit had called it, i opened the window feeling the chill wrap around my body like a wool blanket. I took a deep breath, turning from the window i opened the door to a tear streaked face of Gezara. 

I smiled slightly at her"Sarah, im sorry" She hugged me tightly as i returned her desperation in my own. "hey" she said pulling away slightly " You need to get out of this room, let's go to that hot spring kit was talking about?" 

I looked out the window sighing, feeling just as empty as before.

 "Sar, i don't know what happened yesterday but i can tell it was something serious. I can only wait until your ready and you will talk about it, bad things will eat away at you until you loose yourself. You are an amazing woman and will make a perfect queen, your people need you, we need you. Do not let whatever it was take you from us." Gezara patted my shoulder. 

I nodded to her and we linked arms heading down to the foyer to meet with my mother and the others. "Sarah honey, im so glad you are joining us" My mom came over embracing me as i held her tightly back. 

The helicopter ride was silent except for the wind and propellers turning. Last nights blizzard covered all signs there was ever anything more that happened. I overheard my mother talking with kit about hunter's being captured and then slaughtered. I imagined the blood covered snow as i watched the trees and white blankets pass underneath us. I wondered if this had anything to do with him. 

Closing my eyes i snapped them back open remembering that mercury fur and golden brown eyes gave a tear to my eyes, i quickly wiped away. I looked around hoping no one saw but my mom did she looked over to me raising an eyebrow i shook my head. Landing next to a sandalwood bridge we stepped out of the chopper.