Alpha Games

Chapter- 64 Yours

Sarah POV~

My core vibrated with heat, the sweat expelling from my body had soaked through yet another set of sheets. I groaned as my hands slid up the bedding to touch my folds where the throbbing pain continued. Was my heat finally coming to an end, how long had i been this way, i had lost count by now. 

I blinked open my eyes fighting the sleep that kept pulling me in, the last thing i could remember was the blood on the floor surrounding Gezara. Her image lying still on the hardwood was burned into my brain and kept playing on repeat. I scolded myself again for losing control, i could only hope she was okay. 

Turning my head to the side i blinked slowly again letting the blurry vision subside while i focused on the door. The curtains were drawn tightly allowing only a slight crack of dawn to seep through. The space i recognized as my own, i was back, was i dreaming.

The familiar dark lavender curtains, the dark cherry hardwood. Even the bay window with my favorite white and cream satin throw was in place. I took a deep breath relishing in the scent of my space, it was stronger now. 

I was no longer in the spare room, the terrible horrid room, a prison of sorts. I sat up slowly nursing my head as it to pounded with the force of a hundred hoof beats against the ground. 

My brain rattled around as i shook my head trying to clear what felt to be fog covering my thoughts. How had i gotten back here? Twisting to place my feet flat on the floor i used the nightstand for support as i lifted up. 

My body swayed, i took a seat back on the bed as i took a few more breaths. I felt my weakness and it was making me sick, the nausea was a side effect from the heat i remember Gezara saying. Although she wasn't a wolf i assumed someone had explained everything to her. 

A sharp knock on my door and i lifted my head to see my mother smiling down at me. "Sarah, Honey you look so much better. Let's get you up and a shower then we will get you some breakfast hmm?" 

I could only stare at her, where had she been this whole time i felt like i was being melted from the inside out. She was nowhere to be seen or heard, had she been there maybe i wouldn't have hurt Gezara. My anger flared as i felt Sadie shake out her fur as well. 

Being cooped up had put all of our senses on edge, anything could cause a fight at this point. Sadie scratched at my already throbbing brain wanting to be set free. I shouted at her to back off only furthering her agitation. The anger and pent up energy was coming off in thick waves, vibrating my body with convulsions. 

"Sarah, calm down sweetie. I am only trying to help, i know you may feel abandoned but i promise you that you where never alone. I came by many many times to see you, the room was designed to keep lycans out so i could not enter. I would stand outside the door and await Gezara or Izzy to tell me your progress. I needed to keep your father calm as well, he was livid and close to loosing control with all the males present here." She tried to sooth me. 

I growled and snapped "You did abandon me! Had you been with me i wouldn't have lost control! I needed you mom and where were you? Playing good host with the other Lunas! Its your fault I killed Gezara!" I screamed and started to cry, feeling lost and broken at the thought i had ended my sister's life. 

Covering my face with my hands as the hot tears fell from my already puffy eyes. Her arms encircled me and she kissed my forehead. She stroked my hair as she replied " As i said my sweet, i couldn't be with you without causing your father or this pack harm. We are the leaders for a reason, i know you needed me and believe me it killed me to be away from you. I did what was needed and would do it again to keep you safe and this pack. Gezara is just fine, she will be better than fine as soon as the ceremony for her wolf is completed."